A Series of Notes for No One in Particular

I keep these notes hidden away in my backpack for a reason. I probably will never show these to you, nor will I ever show these to anyone. I know you deserve to know how I feel, and I deserve to let you know how I feel. Maybe these notes I've been writing all this year were more for me, and less for you. I know you're not reading this, but a part of me wants to believe that you are. 

I still laugh at the jokes you told ages ago. It's never the joke itself, it's more of me remembering you laugh, and your smile.

I remember when you told me that I have a good taste in music when I played my favorite songs in my car. I never thought of myself as someone who had a good taste in music, but I believe anything you say. 

I don't want to get jealous when you talk to other people. It isn't fair to you or them.

In tenth grade you started a book club, and I was the only one who went to every meeting. You told me about all of your favorite books, and I read every single one. I want so badly to talk to you about them, I want to know what you think, and what you felt. 

Sometimes I feel to busy to fall in love, but every time I see you, I get reminded of how badly I want to fall. 

I remember when we got matching gumball machine necklaces and you broke yours the next day. I still have mine.

I miss the way we used to talk on the phone for hours on end, forgetting to do homework and staying up until three in the morning. We don't do that anymore.

I miss talking to you about life problems, realizing how strong we really are.

I miss you.

Ever since you moved I haven't felt the same. It's like there's a hole in my heart that can't be filled. 

On your last day in town, you told me how much I meant to you. I remember what you said word for word, I'll never forget it. 

"Every time I think about how much fun I'll have in college, I realize how much I'm going to miss you. You're special, and not in a cliche way. I mean it. I'm going to miss you."

I want to show you these notes. I want to send you my entire notebook just so you can know how much you mean to me. I hope I can remember your address. 

To No One in Particular.
From, Someone who misses you
Attached: A gumball machine necklace