To the First Boy I Ever Loved,
Your smile could light up the entire world. Your laugh is the only music I want to replay for hours. Your mere presence makes me feel so happy, so bright, so me.
You made me feel like I was special. You made me feel like I was worth it. You made me think that maybe I was good enough. You made me think that maybe, just maybe, I was beautiful.
I gushed about you to all my friends. I didn't look at any other guy, because I wanted you to know that I would be committed to us. Us. That word was all I could think about.
I made sure my hair was combed and styled perfectly. I put makeup on everyday so I could look pretty for you. I dressed my very best to impress you.
We talked until the the sky was pitch black and a myriad of stars sparkled like little diamonds. We talked into the next morning.
I didn't want to admit it, but I fell in love with you.
I opened up my heart when my friends warned me to be careful. I fell into a bottomless pit of embarrassment and sadness when they told me to look out.
I don't know if you really understand what you did to me.
You told me I was beautiful. You told me I was talented. You told me I was kind and genuine. You told me all these compliments only so you could break my heart.
Why am I so upset?
I found out you were "talking" to another girl at the same time. You didn't want to hurt your precious ego. You wanted to see who you liked more and who wanted to be with you the most.
As soon as you figured out what you wanted, you dropped me like a gum wrapper on the ground. You left me in the dark. I had to find out what happened from your friend. Wow.
I get it, I knew I wasn't good enough. No. Wait. I AM good enough and you just didn't see that.
It's too late though. When you and the other girl are over, and you're looking for another person to fall head over heels for, it won't be me.
I. Moved. On.
I'm over you and your selfish games. I realize now that I am perfect just the way I am and I don't need you in my life.
You think you're irreplaceable.
You couldn't be more wrong!
I can just cross you off my list, because I have me, myself, and a whole other list of guys that I like. Guys that will definitely treat me better than you ever did.
Now, you may think that you're the one walking away as a winner, but you're wrong. I hate to break it to you, but I'm the one walking away with the win this time. I realize my worth and have everything I need.
