The life of a Tomlinson

Chapter 8

*Darcy's prov*
Me And mark did not believe what our dads had just told us like it really wasn't our fault the paparazzi people found them in that apartment. "I know it wasn't your guy's fault but people upstairs want us to go on an interview tomorrow to talk bout what happened ", I gave my dad a Are you fucking serious look, he continue talking bout how we can't be with them for the rest of the tour that we're going to our second house on California. "You guys will be fine I already told Kendall that you'll be arriving in the morning with Freddy." He grabbed my cheek and kissed mine and mark's forehead.

"Wait hold on out of everyone on your list Kendall is gonna pick us up won't that make it more obvious, why could you get like aunt camille or Gigi could of gonna better" Mark said pushing my dad way and grabbing hold of papa. (I'm hella confused like did he really just push my dad away uff this isn't going to end well) "it's for the best she has the day of tomorrow, I couldn't get ahold of Camille", "Wait hold on if Kendall is gonna look after us what the media be following us" I spoke up after an hour of them all arguing in front of us.

"About that the demons upstairs sort of told the media that you kids are Gemma's-" my dad punch Niall's arm and gave him a glare. "Oh my Excuse my language but what the fuck I swear we can't catch a break always coming out as different children never going out with you guys as a family because people are always outside of the place ready to take pictures, or and to top all this bullshit we have to go out with Kendall who I love by the way, to California and then hide while you two hide away our family I'm honestly disappointed in you guys I can't even call you my dads anymore due to how fucking little we see you guys and yes I know it's cuz of work and modest, but lets be honest here, who are you two trying to be, because in my eyes your just someone that takes care of me. Not even that who just get paid to love me ." I said all at once with tires coming down my face. Both my dads tried to hug me but I ran out. I didn't want their pathetic hugs, never even made me feel good about myself.

Our life's have been a lie since day one that modest changed people. Making it harder to be themselves, now that they got close to us everything was torn apart by one person breaking into our home. "Darcy Maria come back", "honey come back we need to talk bout this more" I shake my head as I ran past dressing-rooms to the tour bus. I heard a lot of girls screaming as I got on the bus. I locked my self in the bathroom & did the one thing I stopped doing in 6th grade, (I know I took a dark turn here but I'm trying out something new here that I haven't done yet) I grabbed a razor from under the sink that I left their in the summer of my 7th grade year trying to stop. Although I did I learned to take some things and other I couldn't witch was now, and yea I fucked in the head for doing this but it's all to much to hold in, i pulled down my sweatpants (I changed in when we got to the venue) and saw the past scares I had on my pale skin, I only really had 4 that stood out still because of how deep I cut.

I began to hear the familiar voice in my head, "they never loved you they just used you to get more famous, all they care about it money you hear that even the girls out side know your worth less"
I shake my head as the voice kept going on my head, I knew it wasn't true but I couldn't hold back anymore she was right my dads never really were there for me when I was going through something always pushing me away, "not even their fans love you, your just a worthless girl who need to feel the sensations of blood running down your leg as it drops to the floor making music to my ears"

I slowly put the blade up to my thigh and cut a little, It stung a little but soon I felt a little better,"that's it do it again but on the other leg come on you know you love the feeling"I repeated it on my other side and laid back a little feeling light head. "You hear that looks like they actually care after all", I slowly closed my eyes.

*Mark's prov*
After my sister ran out my dads screamed telling her to come back it was no use she as already gone. I knew what she had said was true and they did too , they all ran after her as I went through the short way and saw my sister getting into the tour bus.