Hidden feeling that she held in!!!

Is this really home!

  Good morning mamaw. Good morning my little tink. How did you sleep last night? Okay. I guess? What do you mean lisa? Mamaw I had a dream. About? Mom. What about your mom? How she she would creep out of the house at night when Tim..... wait just there! I think I here Chris coming down the hall. I don't think you want him to here your dream, or are you okay with him hearing you?
  Good morning mamaw. Good morning little brat. Hey. I am not a brat. Your my little brat. Well okay. I can be. No you are. You will always be my little bratty sis! NO MATTER what!!! I give him a hug.  Now what about you dream you was saying mamaw that has mom in it.
  Do you remember when mom use to creep out late at night when Tim was asleep? Yes! Those night I hated. Do to we both was her watch out. It was about one of those night. Which night? When mom stay out all night and didn't come back home for three days. Oh yeah that one. Sigh. I hated that one the most. Tim would drink alot and yell at us as well he would throw things at us if we didn't do something that he didn't like. We even had to ask for EVERY little move we made. Like to get up to go to the bathroom, to go get something to eat, go to our rooms, ect! Yes I know. Plus he would hit me. I know sis.
  Come here tink! Mamaw pulled me in her lap an looked in my eyes, "You an Chris don't have to go through that anymore!" Yes ma'am! She wiped my tears off my face with her hand an picked up Chris to also put him in her lap. You to are here to stay right here!
   Good morning my loves. Good morning pawpaw. Are you kids okay this moring? We are now. The kids just wanted to get some things off there minds this morning. I understand. 
   What do y'all want to eat this morning for breakfast? Surprise us. I can do that. Earl can you take them out side for a little bite to play while I cook? I sure can! Good.
    Me an Chris went an got out of our PJ's to go outside to see what we can get in to with pawpaw. Y'all ready. Coming sir. Pawpaw had some food for the birds an squirrels outside in a bucket that had a rope for a handle.  I'm going to let y'all feed the wild life this moring. Huh? Yes the wild life. Oh. Chris you take a handful of food an put it by the tree over there. Tink you take a handful an put a little bit out while you walk around yard. Yes sir. We both did what he asked of us an came back to him. He put the bucket down. Now y'all sit here with out a sound for a couple of minutes an wait. With In a few minutes the animals come to eat. It was beautiful.  So peaceful.
    Breakfast.  Well damn. Ahh pawpaw! You said a no no word. Shhhh. Don't tell mamaw. Yes sir. I will not call y'all in again! DO you understand me! Coming mamaw! Lighten up darling. We was just having some fun. I see that. I don't want the kids food to get cold though. I see.
    Chris an I sat down at the table an mamaw made our plate's with buckets and gravy, hash brown's, bacon as well pancakes. Thanks mamaw. Mamaw gave Chris an I a kiss on our forehead an smiled.  Now eat up kid's.  That way y'all can go back playing outside with pawpaw.  Yes ma'am.
   Mamaw I'm finish eating. Are you sure tink! Yes ma'am.  Why do you ask? You only a few bites of your food baby girl. Mamaw I miss mom.
  I know you do tink! DO you think I can see her? Well, I will have to see if I can get a hold of her an see what she is doing, tink. Okay mamaw! Mamaw I'm finish eating. Chris put your dishes in the sink for me to clean them. Yes ma'am. 
  Tink do you want to keep eating. I guess. Baby girl don't force your self to eat if you don't want to. Even though you should. You can always eat some here an there. No!!!! I want my mom! I want my mom now! Lis.....Lisa Michelle Goodman!!!! Nola let her go. Please. Let her feel what she want to.
  She will come to us when she claims down. I know her to well! DO you really know her. Yes I do! I spend more time with the kids then you do! Thank you every much, Nola!