“You could have save us”, Steve said while holding his hand.
Steve let go his hand and he sees around, only to see his teammates dying or already died. Barton died while still holding his bow and arrow. Bruce in the form of the Hulk is dying. He thought it was not possible for the Hulk to die. Nat, Thor, his teammates all of them is suffering because of him.
“Why don’t you do more”
The images shift to his childhood. It was dark. He sees a kid crying while his father told him to man up and stop crying only to make the kid cries more. The father raises his hand and beats the kid.
“You. Are. Such. A. Dissapointment”, Each word follows with a blow from the father hand.
“I-sorry”, the kid tries to say.
“What did you say? Men need to speak up!”, the father continues to beat him
“You don’t deserve the name Stark!!”
“You need to do more!!”
“Stark men are made of iron!”
“The least you can do is stop crying.”, The father finally stops after his arm got tired.
The kid cries and cries. All alone in the darkness of the huge room.
“Such a dissapointment. A dissapointment. Ungrateful. Stupid. I’m stupid.” The kid mumbles between his cries.
“Why can’t I do more and be like dad”
He can’t take it anymore. He run towards the kid to try and comfort him. But before he could reach the kid, the images starts to dissolve.
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Tony wakes up with his shirt wet and his eyes full of tears. It has been going on since Ultron and Maximoff moves in. He tried not to sleep but eventually his body needs some rest.
“JARVIS, what time is it?”
“It’s 04.00 A.M boss, how can I help you?” A female voice answers him.
“Shit, I forgot that Jarvis is gone”, Tony thinks.
“I’m fine, thank you FRIDAY.”
Tony misses JARVIS, not that he doesn’t love FRIDAY but, JARVIS was always there for him. And now that JARVIS is gone, Tony feels something is missing from him. JARVIS was not just an AI that’ll help you for your daily activities, he was Tony’s friend. Tony’s best friend.
Tony doesn’t have time to mourn about Jarvis before but after Ultron, he mourns, and cries, till night becomes day and he passes out. And that’s the first time he gets a nightmare. It’s about the same thing from that Hydra base.
Every night he tries to sleep he’ll get a nightmare. Sometimes it’s about his fear of losing friends how he is guilty of it, the other times it’s about his childhood. All of them have the same meaning though. Tony is a dissappointment, he doesn’t deserve anything, yet he get everything. His father’s wealth, the name Stark, the Avengers, a Family.
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Now, the Avengers is hardly a family, or at least for Tony. They still blame him even though he already told them that he’s not the one who activates Ultron, that the project can’t be done. But, Maximoff keeps blaming him and Steve always told him that she’s just a child.
“I’M NOT THE ONE WHO ACTIVATED ULTRON”, Tony finally snapped.
Maximoff tears fell and she hide her face to Steve chest.
