The Way I Am

Only If You Do It With Me!

I wake up to see Ella gone. She must have left for the studio. I grab a bowl of cereal and a cup of coffee from the kitchen. I checked my phone for new messages none. I text my mom telling her "everything is all good here and I'll call them later. I have a couple hours before I meet up with Charlie. I go take a shower, jamming out to my speaker. Great weather I LA today! I pick out jean shorts and a off the shoulder crop top. Blow dry my hair and comb through it leaving it wavy for the day. Put on some make up. A nude, gold look with fake lashes and eyeliner. I was putting on my highlighter when my mom texted back. I answer a few emails and before you know it the time reads 2 pm. I better get going! I get in the jeep and set up my music. I arrive to the security gate and tell them who I am and why I am here. She buzzes me in and I park. I knock on the door. I debate on texting him that I'm here or not. I go to knock again, but he opens the door. He looks stressed. "hey! Come in" he says putting a smile on. " are you sure I'm not interrupting anything?" I say walking in. " nope, I finished my meetings and interviews this morning" He says heading to the kitchen. " I was downstairs songwriting, but I'm stuck on some lyrics. "maybe I can help!" I say, setting my stuff on the counter. " that would be great actually!" he says. He grabs my hand leading me to the home studio. Again. The last time we were there we kissed. We actual never talked about what happen and it's just best let it go. I mean it's not like he actually has feeling for a unpopular girl like me. Right? " here's where I'm stuck" he says I just nod. " I never cheated. Deleted everyone cause they made you uncomfortable. These accusations. I can't apologize for something I didn't do." he sings, but the music continues. I pick up where he left off " I won't beg for your love, won't say please. I won't fall to the ground on my knees" I sing quietly. " you're a genius!" he says writing down what I had just sang. I sit there and laugh about his last statement. " would you want to do a duet with me?" he asks. I almost choked on air. " wouldn't you want to do the song with someone more talented and famous?" I answer "you're so talented, I don't know how you don't see it. Plus you help me with the song." he says " you're not going to give up until I say yes are you?" I ask "nope" he smiles " fine, but I'll say I told you so when this song doesn't as well as it could've." I say. "you'll start Tuesday" he says flashing me that smile again. I roll my eyes and leave the room. I head back up the stair and Charlie follows. " we should we go?" he asks. " I already saw the beach, so what about the grove?" I say and he nods in agreement. He grabbed his keys and put on some shoes. I'm letting him drive, because I would get us lost. His house looks more amazing without the people and trash. "ready?" he asks. I nod and pick up my purse. We sang some songs on the way to the grove, but no actual conversation. He parks and puts his hood up and sunglasses on. I put on my sunglasses, bu not for the same reasons. " where to first?" I ask " I lead the way" he says holding out his hand for me to take. Should I? What if fans catch us? I don't what him to have to explain that. I take his hand and look straight ahead. He leads me to Nordstrom. We split up, but he doesn't take long. He comes back to me and only has a couple things in his hand. I found some sandals and a sun dress. I go to checkout and he takes my stuff from me and pays for it before I could do anything about. I lightly punch him on the should and told him not to do that again. He just smile at me and shook his head. We headed for Nike and sophora. I got 2 sweatshirts and a pair of leggings at Nike. He didn't want to go makeup shopping with me, so he went to starbucks. I got a new skincare set ( make up remover, moisturizer, and scrub). I met him at starbucks. He was talking to a couple fans when I walked in. I decided not to bother him, so I order a drink and sat down. He finished and he came over and sat with me. He got our drinks and we headed back to the car. " Thank you! For everything today" I say once he starts the car. " I would love to do it again" He says " you didn't have to pay for my dress and shoes" I said scolding him. " I wanted to. You know most people would be happy I bought them something" he said reaching over and lightly squeezing my knee. " well I guess I'm not most people." I say " that's why your so easy for me to be around" he says " you're not fake" he finishes glancing over at me momentarily before staring back at the road. That's good right? Easy? He wants to be around me? We get back to his house and he opens my car door for me. I giggle lightly. Since when do I giggle? I put my bags in my car and head into his house. I ask where the bathroom is and he points to it. I get changed while he orders food. I'm now in leggings and a sweatshirt. Good thing he has the a/c on or I would be dying of heat stroke. He is searching netflix for a movie. We find to all the boys I've loved before. I started crying a little bit and Charlie scooted close to me and put his arm around me. I laid my head on his shoulder, but the moment was ruined when the food arrived. We resume the movie, but are at different ends of the couch. After we finish eating and watching the movie I went out by the pool. He had to answer a phone call, so I sat there staring up at the sky. No stars, the city is to bright. He finishes his phone call and comes outside and lays next to me on the big lounger. "The only thing the same about her and back home are the stars." he says after a couple of minutes. " I wanna talk about yesterday" he says out of no where " yeah?" I say turning towards him. " yeah, I like you." " I want to kiss you more" he says fiddling with my hand. " I don't expect you to..." he said, but I cut him off by kissing him.