Chapter 2:
I've been friends with Jen and Reese since high school kaya kahit buntong-hininga ng bawat isa sa amin, alam na alam. Sa aming tatlo, si Jen ang parang "Ate" although siya ang pinakabata sa'min dahil sa sobrang matured siya mag-isip at sobrang tangkad. Kung isa kang endorser ng isang produkto, at nakita mo kaming tatlo, si Jen ang paniguradong kukunin mo. Si Reese naman ang parang baby, dahil despite being older than both of us, she acts like a 10-year-old complete with short, bob cut hair and petite figure. Ako? In the middle - when it comes to age, personality, built; lahat na. I'm average. I don't stand out like either of them. Parang ako yung glue sa friendship naming tatlo dahil sa sobrang opposite ng personalities nila, ako yung middle ground; yung touch-base. Siguro kaya ko na-build yung mindset na every guy who liked me and confessed - ay sinasagot ko, even just for giggles. Because I feel like I need to have something to call my own, someone to assure me na kahit ganito lang ako, ako ang pinili niya. I need someone to reassure my existence in the world.
Out of all my previous boyfriends, the one I loved the most is Frank, my last boyfriend - ex boyfriend. He was the reassurance that I needed. Everytime I'm with him, (not to sound too cliche but) parang walang ibang tao sa mundo. To quote Rihanna, "...like the only girl in the world." Definitely. Sa simula, masaya kami ni Frank. No worries, no complications, no nothing. Mahal ko siya at mahal niya ako. That's all that mattered. But there was a turning point. Hindi ko rin alam kung anong nangyari. Hanggang ngayon it still haunts me. Bigla na lang siyang lumamig. He kept giving me the cold shoulder. So I thought, maybe he's just having a bad day. Pinalipas ko ng konti at tinanong ko siya if there's anything wrong, and that if meron man, we should try to solve it together. And like every other relationships, we had our first fight. Which lead to the second, third, and suddenly, the last.
I never thought our relationship would end. I finally believed that my existence mattered, that I mattered. But guess what? Apparently I don't.
That was my childish thoughts from before. And one advantage of being in the middle of everything, is that you can adapt quickly to your surroundings. I learnt and now the only people I need in my life are my friends, and family. No one else. I've closed off any attachments I may develop to anyone who tried to break the barrier I've built. I'm caged.
~ END OF CHAPTER ~
Author's Note:
Woooh! Chapter 2 is a bit longer than the first! haha. I just wrote this during my lunch break at Uni. :P
Do you think anyone could ever melt the wall our Ice Princess set up? What kind of person do you think could? Leave a comment below. :) Thanks for reading and I hope you liked it! much love xx
