Living a lie.

Chapter 2.

I open my eyes and I just stare at the ceiling for a while. I am so nervous how tonight, of course, I have to tell everything to everyone on Candor so when Jude asks me how I feel I reply honestly. Of course! I can't be Candor! I whisk have to admit being divergent! I can't do that! So it narrows it down to two complete opposites; Candor and dauntless. I finally sit up and use he washroom, I put on a simple jumper and my jacket and I make my way downstairs. I sit in my seat and look at my oatmeal, I think, dauntless or amity? Dauntless or amity? I am taken out of my trance when my mom calls my name, I look up;

"Ya?" i say

"What's wrong honey? u have been stating at your oatmeal for ten minutes" she replies

Damn! What do I say? U could just tell her that I'm nervous. Before I even get to seconds thought them the words pop out;

"I'm just nervous that's all." She doesn't look convinced but she replies anyway;

"there is itching to be nervous about."

Easy for u to say.

We climb into the family car with my mom and dad in the front, me and Chase in the middle and Jude in the back alone. When we get to the chiding building we find a seat among our faction. As I scan the crowd my heart stops. I see Joyce and she sees me, damn! I look away and I try to focus.

I zone out for the introduction and then back in after, I hear;

"Valerie Zen"

And I know that soon it will be me, about three other names are called before I hear;

"Celeste Woods."

As slowly as I can I make my way up to the front and take the knife in my hand. I think that I know where I belong, I cut my hand and look at the blood, a weird color. I make my way to the dauntless and amity bowls and just as I just close my eyes I let my hand go where it wishes, and I know that j made the right choice.