Broken- Hamliza Fanfic

Happy

This is a really sad filler chapter...I am so sorry...
Alexander's POV
John texted me saying that he wanted to talk, I'm kind of nervous, I don't know what's happening.

My hands tremble as I make my way to John's house where I'm supposed to meet John. About a thousand thoughts rumble around my head.
Is he breaking up with me?
No, he can't be! We're happy!
Is he not happy with me??
I sure hope not...I'm happy with him!
When I try to knock on the door I fall forward because the door is opens by a tear-strained Henry Laurens(y'all saw this coming....). "S-sir, I'm here for J-John, is he a-around?" I ask my voice shaky afraid of his answer. "Come inside, Alexander." He says clearing his throat. As I walk into the Laurens' living room I see Laf and Herc cuddling with tear-stained faces.
No........it can't be...
"Y-you should probably sit down mon ami(I'm listening to Mean Girls and I almost put sit down Cady)." Lafayette mutters. I shakily make my way to the sofa and sit down next to my two friends. "A-Alexander, I'm afraid John got into a car crash earlier this morning," Mr. Laurens starts, but I already know what's coming. "he didn't make it." My heart pounds in my head as tears roll down my face. I sit in shock Martha Laurens hugs me.
Martha not John...
I won't ever see his handsome freckles face again?
I won't receive his soft kisses and hugs?
I won't be able to kiss and cuddle with my little turtle-lover?
I won't ever see my Johnny again.....will I?

I hug my shirt as I sob into Martha's shoulder. I feel like a million atomic bombs just went off in my head. My mind is so scattered, but not as scattered as my heart.

Flashback

"John....I need to get something off of my chest." I say to John who's sipping coffee in my kitchen. "Mkay, what is it?" He replies. I inhale deeply and smile weakly, "John, I have liked you for a long while now..." John shoots out of his chair, makes his way over to me, and kisses my cheek. I stare at him in shock. "Let's just say...I've like you for a while too." He mutters. He wraps his arms around me as I bury my head into the crook of his neck. 

Flashback over

I smile at that memory and wipe away the tears that won't stop pouring.

Another Flashback

"BABE!" John shouts jumping on my bed as I read. I chuckle and put down my book. "Yes, John?" I ask still laughing a bit. "THE MEAN GIRLS SOUNDTRACK IS OUT!!" My eyes light up. "OH FUCK YES!! JOHN GET US A PAIR OF HEADPHONES!" He laughs and tosses my MacBook onto the bed with a pair of green earbuds. This should be fun...

Flashback over

I chuckle at John's childish behavior. I don't really pay attention to what anyone else is thinking, all I want to think about is John.

ANOTHER FLASHIEBACKIE!! (Wtf am I doing with my life rn??)

I smile as I sit on my boyfriend's lap while he sings "Someone gets hurt" from Mean Girls. After a while I join in as Aaron Samuels. Once we finish singing I feel John stroking my hair softly. I lean my head against his chest as he smiles and holds my hands. I wish we can stay like this forever. Happy.

Flashback over

But we can't be happy, because John's gone.

Hello lovely people!! Sorry for such a wait!! I'm also sorry if I made you cry...I get emotional reading this kind of stuff so I totally wouldn't blame you if you did... AND THEN ELIZA COMES IN AND- Nope. No spoilers. I won't. JK I actually totally would...Oh my gosh I'm such a weirdo.....ALSO I found out that MY SISTER MET DAVEED DIGGS. And I'm like shooketh. She worked for a magazine company and it was right before Hamilton got huge, she was one of his first professional interviews...I'm so shooketh....SO so shooketh....and jealous....VERY VERY jealous...