~The blood on my hands~

Day 3

The next morning Claire woke up next to Simon. She had fallen asleep after they made love. Claire started to blush, she wanted him so bad, why isn't she...Her thoughts stopped as she felt Simon stir a small bit, hugging Claire as tight as he can in his sleep. Claire looked down and kissed his lips, she loved him since they met and she finally got to show him how much she did, she took a breath in and cuddled back up with Simon, she loved his touch and needed it forever, She loved him. 

Something broke inside her mind. 

"Simon?" She shook him to get him to wake up. Simon opened his eyes up lazily, "Heya, Claire." His voice was a sleepy type of hot and she loved him so much, she needed him forever Claire took a breath in, tears started to build up "Simon do you like me?" Claire needed this answer. Simon took Claire's hands and nodded. Simon stood up still had Claire's hands. "Well don't you look at the time, Darling" Claire looked over at the clock " 7:00 pm," Claire said looking down at the clock. "Yes, my love and y'know what I do at this time?" Claire shook her head. "Time for shit to go down" Claire gave him a confused face. "My father wasn't the only one in a gang, well i wouldn't call it a gang but, it's me and my friends and we got some sort of fight club I guess you can say, and no it's not all peachy like the shows are, we find who can't fight and beat them up to the point that they think they'll reach death but they don't." He smiled a dark one. "And you will be attending this time, Claire sweetie." Simon finished all dressed in black, leather jacket, jeans, a shirt and leather shoes. Claire's mind started to race. The voices started to act up again. "He only fucked you because HE NEEDED to use you UP and take you dOwN" Claire didn't wanna listen so she just smiled at Simon and nodded. Her voices started to laugh and fill her mind up with ways to her Simon, She didn't even want to hurt Simon. She loved him and didn't wanna hurt him. But he had different plans for her, Simon helped her get dressed put her stuff back on but besides her 'actually' clothes he gave her, his same clothes but smaller. She took a breath as Simon let her sit down and tied her shoes for her. She tried to shut her voices u, but they wouldn't have it, it kept pushing her. "hE wiLL tHinK YouR A MisTake" Claire started to agree with the voices, listening to ever insult they made, everything they said about herself. They knew her better than she did herself. She thought.

They got into his car around 8, and everything seemed like it was going to fast or too slow, she didn't even remember her name by the time she got there. She didn't feel anything, she heard things but she couldn't answer. She went insane but she didn't warn him.

"This is my fight club Claire, Welcome and get comfortable you'll get to stay here for a while" He gave Claire a wink. But Claire was in her own state of mind. She didn't hear a word he said, nor cared. She didn't wanna be touched or kissed her even talked to, the voice kept saying everything that puts her on edge but she didn't know if she loved it or not, She didn't tell anyone if she was okay or not, because she wasn't. And she couldn't. "Hey, are you ready?" She snapped out of her trance. Simon was in front of her with black gloves on. She took a shaky breath and nodded. "here, have these gloves I know you like red and blackkkk!~" She looked down at his hands and saw a black glove along with a bloody red one. Claire's head was filled with darkness again. She couldn't stop it right now. "So are you ready guys? Simon looked at Claire, "Claire are you ready to beat ass?" Claire's eyes burned with insanity. Her voices stopped. "Let's go find some motherfuckers" The gang headed outside "Hello mama?" A lady turned around to face one of Simon's friends. "What are you doing all alone?" Claire asked. Simon stared at Claire's dark eyes and realized he fucked up, and someone is going to die today. The lady looked back at Claire, "Are you going to hurt me?" The lady had tears in her eyes already, Claire seemed to not care what so ever. "Denine hurt, cunt"  Simon gave Claire the signal. Claire looked back at the lady who was too scared to move. "Look hunny, we could do this 2 way either you run away and I chase, or the easy one. Just fucking stand there as I beat the fuck out of you and take it like a little bitch." Claire looked deep into the lady's eyes not blinking, nothing. "Please let me go!" Claire giggled, she was losing her mind. "My voice tells me your husband left you for someone else right?" The lady's eyes got sadder as Claire went on about the break-up. Simon stared at Claire, he didn't know what to do or say anymore. "Well, time up Lily, or slut" Claire took a handful of Lily's hair and slammed her on the ground. "AH" The lady screamed. Claire showed no remorse as she took out a blade and slit her collarbone. Simon was scared, "what the fuck" he mouthed. Claire slammed her head into the sidewalk a few good times until she was bleeding out of her skull. Claire brushed off her dirty knees and walked away. Simon and his friends followed. Simon didn't know how to tell Claire this but he has to leave her. 

Claire and the rest went home after not being able to find another people to hurt, or kill. Claire voiced didn't talk for the rest of the night. Simon and Claire drove home from the Club. "Claire?" Claire looked over still blood on her face. He had to do it. Her hands started to shake, Her voices came back. Her anger was replaced with sadness. Her voices got sadder. She felt tears coming from her brown eyes. Simon took a breath "We can't be together." Claire's eyes widened, tears stopped. "I told you, he used you. Claire shook her head "no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no!" Her voices started to get angry. She couldn't tell who's talking no more. She felt the knife in her hand. "Kill him, CLAIRE!" Claire looked up at Simon who stopped the car. She stared at him. She put the knife on her wrists away from his eyes and cut herself deep. Claire shook off the voice and put up the knife in her pocket. She nodded and got out of the car. Little did Simon know. She's will have him back. No matter what anyone says. She took a breath and started to walk home. She took out her phone and hooked her earbuds in and tapped on "hand of God" She took a breath and started to sing the lyrics. 

"My head spins, I've been sipping I've been sipping, I've been slipping lately

All my sins, I've been tripping, I've been tripping, my God
Brand new life, I've been looking
I've been looking, I've been looking lately
All these nights, they've been cooking
They've been cooking me rawI am just a man, I am just a man
Who lusts, gives, tries
Sometimes I lose my wayTears at a funeral, tears at a funeral, I might break
Angry at all the things, angry at all the things I can't change
When you're lost in the universe, lost in the universe
Don't lose faith
My mother says, "Your whole life's in the hand of God" 

She didn't stop until her voice was almost gone. She took a breath and scream out loud "NOTHING HAS CHANGE HE IS THE FUCKING SAME!!!" 

Save me.