Dear E,
I know you might find it weird that we're both girls, and you would never in a million years suspect that I like you. Nobody knows that in bisexual. But when I realized I was bi a year ago, I realized it was because of you. It makes me sad that we only have one more year together until high school, and we will probably never be together. Although sometimes I wonder if you could like me, sometimes it seems like you could. That shirt you gave me, I sleep with it when I'm sad, because you always make me happy. I think about you at night, and at school, and all the time. When I see you at school, I literally sometimes feel my heart race and my face warm up. I have prayed that maybe you could like girls too! When we had coffee together today, I imagined it was a real date, because I knew it was probably the closest I'd ever get. You make me wonder how everyone at school doesn't have a crush on you, you're pretty cute! That time you came over to my house, was... it was so amazing to be able to see that different side of you. Anytime our skin touches, like at school, when we hang out, or anytime ever, it is truly more than electric. It is like fire mixed with clouds and puppies and unicorns dancing on a rainbow made of happiness. I'm sorry that that was the cheesiest thing ever written by a human being ever, but that cannot even begin to describe the way it feels when our skin touches. It would be a million time harder to describe my feelings for you. You truly have been a light in a pitch black night for me numerous times. And the fact that we will be spending time pretty much stuck with each other for three days in Boston? Don't even get me started on that! It makes me happier than I thought humanly possible when you want to spend time with me. For example, when we were talking about Cheley and you said we should share a bunk and sit together in the bus, or when a teacher says to find a partner and you immediately grab my hand. I'm always interested in how your day was, or if you need anything, for reasons different than you might think. Yes, I alway want to make sure you're okay because you're my best friend, but also because I love you, and I hurts so bad to know that you will probably never have the same feelings for me. But I pray every. Single. Day. That you will. I really do hope that my prayers are answered.
I will always love you more than you can know,
-J
