Blue Fire in My Soul

The Battle

The Battle

By: Blue Bonfire 1

I want to be myself

This is me now.

Happy

Is no longer what I feel.

Broken

Is what I am.

Strong

Is something I'll never be.

Dishonest

Is how I live my life.

Kindness and service

Will get me nowhere.

Suppressing my feelings

Is something I'll always do.

Being hopeful

Is a joke.

Staying away from my friends and family

Is better for all of us.

Love

Doesn't work.

Hate

Is what I feel when looking at myself.

Confidence

Is something I'll never have.

Doubt

Rushes in at every turn.

So now my strength

I give up.

I will never say

I can do this today.

My thoughts constantly saying

I'm better off dead.

Never will I say

I'm worth living.

It's time to say

Goodbye.

So now my tired soul

To my destruction I will follow.

There is no path

To recovery.

I give in

To my depression.

It's time to say goodbye

To being alive.

Hello

To self-destruction

Goodbye

Getting better.

Everything is

Impossible.

Nothing is

Here for me.

Everyone i love is

Leaving.

The darkness

Is just beginning.

My life

It's over.

So I do it

I need help

To turn things around

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