January, 27 2013

The weekend had rolled in after another stressful week of school. Honestly I was nervous, insecure, but determined to become "that" version of myself in highschool. You know the one where you have everything going good. After puberty and all, and you just transform into that person that was supposed to be you all along.

After two years, I really don't feel different I just look alot different.

I prayed to god I would one day.

After all the acne, hair screw ups, morning breath, embarrasing outfits, and just the lack of confidence was killing me. I couldnt even look into anyones eyes and carry on a conversation. But really "that" person I wanted to be was far from who I really am.

Dorky, Random, ambitious, and a big dreamer.

For being me i've made some and loss some friends that have changed, but no one has ever stayed the same.

* phone vibrates *

Krystal: "Hey come to my house "

Me: "Sure whats going on"

Krystal: "Party"

The clock read 8:34 pm. Honestly I had nothing else to do on a Saturday night besides watch Netfliix and eat.

Heres the back drop on krystal in a nutshell. Shes one of those friends that will shut you out if shes dating a guy or has discovered a new clique. But once you seem "cool" enough she'll send you invites like these which are pretty fun parties. However, you were part of an old squad but she always ends up being somewhat friends with you again.

Not at all a bad person she just changed and found a "crowd". Were mutual friends now but I can't help to think that she misses us sometimes. Because overall we were people who didnt need to "fit in" to have fun. The people she used to know could sit in her room for hours and talk about the funniest subjects ever, and let you know that these friends loved you for who you are.

Hangout without drama or fakeness.

Well highschool changes people and we learn to forgive and forget. Maybe never forget but you let it slide anyway because you're better than holding a grudge.

I got another text from Adrianna.

The girl that had my back since freshman year and was part of Krystal's old squad or what not like i was.

Adrianna: "you going to Krystal's*

me: *Hell yea girl i'll see you there"

Adrianna: "lol Sienna and I will meet you there"

me: "sounds bomb!"

I couldnt wait to see them, dance, hangout and catch up. This year has gotten us all whipped. We have jobs now, grown up and getting things ready for senior year.

We needed to party.

Krystal's would be the place.

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