January, 27 2013

Krystal's

I stood and just took the image in.

Troy.

He must have noticed because he shot me an unexpected surprised look. Like he didnt think I would show up. Or maybe he was just shocked because his eyes were wide metallic blue and his eyebrows were lifted.

"Natasha?" whispered Troy.

"Hey uhh hi" I said with a soft smile trying to hide the pang of heart ache that keeps rising between breaths. But it was suppressed down.

oh god , Natty remember he's not interested anymore. You broke his heart and he doesn't need that again. It's been a year you need to let go.

With that I snapped out of the presence of Him.

"Hey" he gave a weary smile but there was a hint of admiration.

"see you around" I smiled the best I could and tried to peel my eyes off his gorgeous gaze.

We brushed shoulders as he let me through to the kitchen.

My subconcious was giddy yet telling me to control myself.

Where are my hoodrat beautiful friends ?

There were bodies everywhere. Dancing, playing beer pong, some were even swimming in her pool.

Krystal's parties have only gotten bigger since the 7th grade.

I texted for Adrianna and told her im standing by the fridge. While I stand I can't help but move a little to "Studio babe" by schoolboy q.

There were seniors on top of the counters just shaking and grinding to the beat.

I started shaking my head until I here "Natty" being yelled infront of me. Sienna was holding a drink in her hand as she pulled me into a hug . Her grasp was cold due to her drink but the hug was inviting. During that I feel another hug and I turn to see Adrianna's body pact over ours. Goodness I miss my girls.

"uhhh you didnt warn us you were on fire tonight like damn!" Sienna practically yells.

I begin to laugh they're the show stoppers, Sienna practically looks like Chloe from the Bratz dolls. Blonde green/blued eyed, tan and curvy. She's part Native American.

Adrianna looks like she was imported from Brasil. Hazel eyes that were complimented by tan skin and tight light honey curls. She's part Caucasian, Puerto Rican, and African American. They were beautifully mixed.

As for I, I was Thai and Loas, Tan with black hair. I couldnt be happier. Sure I was no supermodel but who's perfect. Everyone was Gorgeous in everyway. I would never let the opinions of others stop my grind.

"well we all look stunning so lets dance " I smile towards them and they just chuckle while leading me to the dance floor.

The night seem to bring an essence of free. My body just took control, bouncing, rolling, and swaying my hands were thrown up into the air.

No fücks were given tonight. Stressed had steamed up and left my mind. By the 8th song I needed to get some cool air. I told my friends i'll be back but they were too busy doing the wobble. They just smiled and waved before I headed out through the front door.

...

Troy's POV.

Holy crap Natasha was here.

I haven't spoken to her since last summer and I barely see her throughout school.

I can't like not run into her again. She is here. But I don't think much will happen i'm pretty sure she has moved on. Our texting conversations have turned small and uninteresting. So I decided not to text her anymore I thought we were "done" like she told me a year ago. She never made the effort again to show me she loves me so I just stopped searching even after we messed around after we had broken up. But I will always love her. She was the only one that I wanted to take my virginity. I wanted hers because deep down she was special, and I thought that would make us closer in some ways. But I was wrong we only began drifting and that was part of the reason why we didn't work the first time.

She told me she was insecure and not confident. That she didn't deserve me.That I could do better. With that she began to become distant. I hated that the most.

So we left off on an unfinished note.

I miss her sometimes but I don't want things to end up the same way.

Who knows maybe she has changed and isn't the girl I once fell for. Maybe she just doesnt care anymore.

"Bro how you feelin?" My best friend Edward questions.

"i'm good" I hesitate for a mere second then go back to my gaze on the stars. Outside the music was blurred and the cool january air felt Amazing.

That is untill I here the front door shut. Followed by a sigh of relief from the person I least expected to see.

After I saw her and realized Edward had walts back inside leaving me on the dark porch.

The only reason I knew it was her was because of the dim lighting that hovered over the black mahogany doors.

But... she was even more lovely looking than before. Her body never ends to surprise me. The way it curves and harmonizes with every edge of her hips. Her thighs I could kiss all day and never get tired because they were so soft. She was short to me considering that I was 6'1 but I knew she was always like 5'4. Still I loved to look down at her. At one point she was my everything and I constantly did think of her.

Here she was a cup size bigger, hips wider and a smile brighter than before. It was enough for me just to watch her for a moment as she let out pants like shes been dancing i'm sure.

"having fun" I manage to speak after a moment of staring.

she turned around quick.

"ahhhaa yes, they had me sweating in there I had to catch up out here" she breaths heavily.

"how you've been natty?" I ask a bit nervous.

Natasha's POV.

"busy really I feel like passing out sometimes. But what about you" I say slightly caught off guard.

He hasn't said much to me since we stopped texting/ meeting up and all.

But god has blessed his beautiful

being.

" I've been better, actually i'm well"

"i'm glad" I smile.

He's just so pretty it hurts.

His hands are in his pockets as he starts towards me.

Oh shıt ! he's walking to me what the hell am I supposed to do?!

"come here " he says a little nervous.

I start to him as I realize his arms are open.

Slowly, I sauntered over and I wrapped my arms around his neck as he pulls my waist in a "friendly hug".

It lasted a little too long. But I didn't complain he smelt good and his hold was firm and strong.

I miss him.

umm wake up! after tonight you guys won't speak a word it will just be awkward.

right.

So I pulled out and gave him a small smile. But his eyes poured into mine the way they always used to when he looked down at me.