Dear My Super Secret Crush (#ToAllTheBoysContest)

Dear Nicholas

Dear Nicholas,

It was the year 2002 when we met, you were a cute little boy, and I was a sweet little girl. Now it is the year 2018. I'm totally in love with you, but you don't know it.  It's been a few weeks since I last saw you, you were standing in line at the grocery store with your mom; you were wearing those faded jeans, a ball cap, and a flannel shirt-honestly you looked complete and utterly handsome. I've been wanting to write you this letter every since we met back in second grade- I adored you even then, I adored you when you moved away, I adored you when you moved back freshman year and now, we've grown, so we are not little kids anymore, not even stupid teenagers, and not a day has gone by that you haven't been on my mind.  As I sit here today writing this letter to you I am just eighteen days from my twenty-second birthday, and I cannot stop thinking about how my life would have been/where we would be if I had just come out and told you my feelings that first day that I saw you again. You have always been a light in my world, although, to you, I have always remained invisible. In second grade I didn't know what this feeling was called so I never acted, by the time ninth grade rolled around I think I may have had a hint of what it was- but still, I never acted on it. Now, at almost twenty-two, I can't help the possible what-ifs, could have been's, and I really cannot help the grief I feel for never revealing my feelings to you.  I loved you then Nicholas, and I love you now, and a part of me seems to think that I forever will. I just wish that you would attempt, even the slightest bit, to understand me, and take the time to get to know me without acting on your friends' words and jumping to conclusions like they do.

So, this is my letter to you, the boy that I've loved, and I hope that someday at the very least you acknowledge my presence.

Forever and always,

Dani_James