Stress Will Get The Best Of You

Sleep?

Impossible.

When I have 1 million plus thoughts racing through my head of me and you?

When I know that I just let you go?

When I know that now, no matter how hard I try, I won't be able to win you back?

It's ok though.

Sleep is a joke anyway.

Eating?

You're hilarious.

Anything I eat now tastes bland.

No taste to it.

I lost everything when you lost feelings for me.

But eating is the least of my worries.

Me?

Enjoying life?

I wish.

My happiness left when you did.

I know

That you know

That I still have feelings for you.

Gonna take a while before I'm back being 100%.

The only time I was happy was when I was by your side.

Any time I was just in your presence

Whether we were talking or just sitting in silence.

But now you can't even stand to be beside me

Much less keep a conversation with me.

Stress level?

To the max.

I have these uncontrollable shakes any time I think about you.

I get these things called butterflies in my stomach too.

And right now,

My stomach is full of them.

I stay up all night thinking of how I could have made it better.

But why?

That won't help.

You did the impossible.

You ruined the Great Wall.

The wall around my heart that I said no one could break.

You did it.

But it wasn't just you.

I helped.

Because I wanted you in my heart.

But now I have to sit back and repair all of the broken stones.

I have to put back every single brick that was taken from me.

And that

Will take

Some time.

So if I seem blue

It's because I'm thinking of you.

24/7 I think.

You never leave my mind.

I guess I've already left yours.

I'm sorry for all o the stress I put you through.

I didn't intend on doing that.

But I guess it's all over now.