At the end of Autumn

PROLOGUE

Spring, summer, autumn and spring.

I only have three season in my life, since 7 years ago. Theres no winter. Because when winter comes I'm no longer on my own world. I lived in the most pain in my life. I lived in memory about you.

No matter how much winter has passed the pain was never disappeared.

I hate you as much as the pain you gave to me. But I never let those pain leave from my life. Because my love for you is greater than that.

I’m afraid that I will lose you as well. I’m afraid that you will no longer hanging in my head. I’m afraid that I will lose all the happiness that we ever have together. I’m afraid you will totally go away from my life. Although now you no longer here beside me.

I can endure the pain as long as your smile still flashed in my days. The smile that I always longing for.

And at the end of this autumn, I wonder about the said miracles from God. Is it real or not? Or He is just playing on me?