Sleeping Beauty (with a Modern twist)

Chapter Four

Okay, okay, okay just relax Olivia, it's nothing. Nothing. I clutched my heart and starred at the blank stage. Out of sheer dumb luck I'm standing in practically the same spot I stood, during the last R5 concert I went to. Except that was in Seattle, and the venue here is a little different.  But like before, it's by Ross's mic, in the second sort of row.  And now I'm trying not to hyperventilate, it's so stupid, I feel like I'm a kid waiting on Christmas Eve, nervous (what is I get coal?) but extraordinarily excited. I just want them to come out, maybe then I'll put these unnecessary feeling about Ross to rest. Today has been such a blur as usual but all this talk about Ross and him, meeting me, and carrying me, and watching me while I sleep...NO, for Christ stake...  

I guess I'm just so confused.

During the concert in Seattle... I... I don't know, I guess you could say, it was amazing, I was head over heels...in love

Okay, okay, before the concert even, I was head of heels in a love.

Then the concert, he looked at me all night.

And I lied.

I did meet him after, he came up to my group of friends, I couldn't speak, and he looked at me, I was expecting him to at least say hello, or talk to me, but he couldn't, he flirted with the other girls, and didn't give me the light of day. I was crushed, after that spectacular night; I thought he felt the same way. The room melting as we got lost in each other eyes, I may be as bold to say love at first sight.

So it was easier to say I never meet them instead of say I never had the nerve to talk to them. Plus, it's better to forget the memory. Mostly that.

And today, the way he looked at me, like shocked, he probably was creeped out by the fact that I was looking at him all night, and maybe I was in some sort of narcoleptic hallucination and imagined he was starring back at me. 

But also the carrying and watching while I sleep... just throw's me off...I just... it makes me hash back up all those old feelings, like the one when I first saw him, on his T.V. show. He came into the shot, and they first introduced his character... I couldn't think straight. Ahhhhhh stop it Olivia!!! It's nothing, old, stupid feelings; I'm just a fan to him nothing more.

"You okay Olivia? You seem tense?" Kristen practically shouted in my ear, it was hard to hear of the loud cacophony of excited squeals. I forced myself out of that labyrinth of thought, and relaxed my shoulders. "Yeah, Just excited." I smiled at her. She smiled back at me. Then we heard the audience roar with anticipations, I let out a few screams to just to take the anxiety off. They came onto the stage; the crowed erupted, for such a small crowed they could really do some ear damage. My stomach tied into knots. I've been here before. It was all too surreal, I almost wanted to cry, then he turned like he did before, he scanned this little section of his audience, and somehow fell into my gaze. I wanted to pull away, not look at him anymore, but just like before, I fell, hard, and gawked back at him, and just like before, he looked stunned for a little bit, then his hazel eyes relaxed, and a grin spread across his face, he smiled at me, then turned his attention to the crowd and yelled "ARE YOU GUYS READY TO ROCK?!?!" I shouted "YES!" back adding to the chorus of voices. And they started jamming out to DNA.  I joined in on the singing, and head banging, I looked around and smiled at the other members of R5, Ellington was laughing at who knows what, while he smashed his drumsticks onto the drums. Rydel had that beautiful smile she always has on while she played the piano. Rocky was lying on the ground, slashing his guitar strings. Riker had his hand in the audience, as they swooned and touched his arm, nearly pulling him into the crowd. A huge grin spread across my face. Even though I was hurt by Ross doesn't mean I stopped hating his family. And him... I was laughing at all this, the perfectness, how much I love these guys, nodding my head along to California Girls, I looked up, and Ross was starring at me again, my smile dropped. So did his, and it's like we just examined each other with our eyes, to see how the other person was feeling. I grinned a little back at him, and this huge smile returned to his face. He looked back to the audience, and rocked out more, walked over to Riker and rocked out with him. The concert went on like this for a while, R5 playing some songs, even one new one, that they're going to play on their summer tour next year. The gang did what they do best, making the audience smile, and laugh and fall in love with their music. After a few more painful eye contacts from Ross, and faking smiles whenever he looked at me, the concert was over. Since it was just a small little venue, only like 20 people, 20 loud; huge fans of R5. The group just jumped down from the stage and started talking to people right away.