Trapped Within The Mind (When Simple is Rather Complex)

Real

Tell me what you feel. 
Is this pain even real?
Realizing all of my mistakes
makes me aware of what's at stake
Because I'm losing my soul
I'm losing my mind
I'm just finding myself deeper in this hole we call life 

Tell me how you feel
tell me what is real
I need you to know this isn't a threat
It's a promise
I can't be over yet
But i can't help but wanna forget
I want it to be over
I want this all to end.

Destroy my veins
Just give me a blade
let me die in vain
I need my suicide to be named, baby

What should I name it?
Got any ideas?

How about your name or maybe how you define mine
"you're nothing but a joke
all you do is whine
Why don't you shove a pistol down your throat already?
Just write your damn suicide note,
We're better off without you

O.K Lemme ask, Who says we ever needed you?" 

You told me how you feel, yeah
 you told me this isn't real
It's all in my head
It's just a damn mystery
All these tears are just soaking in my bed 
Why am I trapped within my own mind again
 I just need something to help me fucking cope

Give me some dope or maybe some coke

I don't have a clue no more
All I feel is hollowness within my core
 I just need something to take this edge off now
I'm tired of feeling broken
I'm tired of feeling feeling down.

Because you told me how you feel.
You told me this isn't real.
Yet all this weight on my shoulders is making me kneel
before the demons that are dancin my mind
and I don't mind
how they hold me during these dark days
 Or how they spark up this dark craze
That's screaming at me
echoin' though my thoughts
 that if I take a blade and carve within my skin
that I won't feel the numbness within me no more

I won't be afraid to cry no more
because the contract with these demons
 are bound with blood and baby
I'm layin' in a pool of it right now.

No you aren't goin' in a craze like me
seein' things
hearin' things
shreddin' things like me
why aren't you believin'
when I told you how I feel?
How come you keep sayin
that this pain isn't real?
Can't you see I'm breakin

can't you see I'm cold?
Can't you see I'm dyin' out,

and losing my own soul?
I need to be bailed out
but you ain't gonna sell out
because you're
seein things
hearin things
breaking things around me.

Now I know you won't be greivin

When you see the grave digger leavin'
Because I told you it was real.
I told you how I feel. 

but now I'm just a memory
trapped within some history
all because this was real
and I couldn't deal anymore.

Yeah I know lost my fight
but just know that it's alright
because now I'm just a memory
trapped within some history
with a smile on my face
because I knew the pain was real
and it was all I could feel
Until the blade became obsessed
and finally put the pain to rest.