Help Me

Chapter 11

{Sonic's Pov}

Fleetway had left about 3 hours ago, super left half an hour ago, I'm alone again

The thoughts I had after the dream, they said they were proud, but sad that I had gone through so much pain

I'm numb to it but it's still alive inside

I started to hum absently, but I then started to sing

" When did I become so numb?
When did I lose myself?
All the words that leave my tongue
Feel like they came from someone else " I was lost in the song

" I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me inside
I'm paralyzed " I couldn't stop the tears

" I'm paralyzed
When did I become so cold?
When did I become ashamed? (oh)
Where's the person that I know?
They must have left
They must have left
With all my faith " the thoughts running through my head are about what happened weeks ago

" I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me inside
I'm paralyzed " I had my blade in hand, Super didn't see that I had gotten it back

" I'm paralyzed
I'm scared to live but I'm scared to die
And if life is pain then I buried mine a long time ago
But it's still alive
And it's taking over me where am I?
I wanna feel something, I'm numb inside
But I feel nothing, I wonder why
And on the race of life time passes by
Look
I sit back and I watch it, hands in my pockets
Waves come crashing over me but I just watch 'em
I just watch 'em
I'm under water but I feel like I'm on top of it
I'm at the bottom and I don't know what the problem is
I'm in a box
But I'm the one who locked me in
Suffocating and I'm running out of oxygen " I cut my wrists as I continued, I heard something in the background but I thought it was Super or Fleetway, or even a small animal

" I'm paralyzed
Where are my feelings?
I no longer feel things
I know I should
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me?
I'm lost and it kills me inside " I started to cut my thighs as I choked out the words as tears slid down

" I'm paralyzed (I'm just so paralyzed)
Where are my feelings? (yeah, I'm just so paralyzed)
I no longer feel things (I have no feelings)
I know I should (oh how come I'm not moving why aren't I moving ay yeah)
I'm paralyzed
Where is the real me? (where is the real me, where is the real me?)
I'm lost and it kills me inside (I'm paralyzed, I'm paralyzed)
I'm paralyzed (I'm paralyzed) " as I sang the last verse, I cried, millions of thoughts going through my head, I felt someone touch my shoulder

I jumped as I looked at the topaz eyes and the ruby eyes, they both had frowns as they looked at me

I dropped the knife and cried into my hands, I felt one of them wrap their arms around me, I stiffened at first but soon relaxed and cried into their chest fur

{Shadow's Pov}

I watched as Sonic cried on silver, my gut twisted with regret, the song he had been singing, I'm not sure if that's how he actually feels inside or not

" Sonic, I'm so so so sorry, I never should of said those things to you, I hate to admit it but your like family to me, the moment those words left my mouth all I could taste was sick " I heard Silver sniffle

" Faker........Sonic, I never meant what I said, I made a mistake, I'm sorry, you reminded me of Maria and it made me feel sick, but seeing you like this, it makes me see that, there's a lot more to a person than it seems " I had a hard time saying because I felt as if I was going to cry as well

He was quiet while looking at us, his eyes were lifeless, and dull, tears were shining in his eyes

His head snapped behind us as he looked at Super and Fleetway, but a few others were behind them

The navy blue one came towards us and placed his forehead against Sonic's

" don't be afraid, it's what you always told me, whenever I got spooked when I was in control, fighting the meterex when Chris and Cosmo were trapped, you told me to stay calm even when I I saw me....us " he had said as his blood red irises looked into Emerald

He looked at us

" thank you " was all he said as he faded with a slight smirk

We looked behind us at Super and Fleetway, the others behind them also faded

" that was dark, the one that was born with Sonic, each of us had been born with every member of his family, we had lost some, but me and Fleetway are the oldest ones " I heard Super

I look back at Sonic and see he had fallen asleep

" Dark would of killed you both if you hadn't done it, he's always been the most protective of him, always been the first to decide wether or not we take control, it's the ancient rules " I heard Fleetway say

" please make sure he is safe, we will only interfere if his life is in danger " I saw Super smile and fade along with Fleetway who looked more alive

I look at Silver and laughed slightly, he had fallen asleep holding Sonic protectively

I shake my head and pick the mm up gently and chaos control to my house and put them in the spare room, I sit in the chair and fall asleep

To Be Continued

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