All the Stars in the Sky

a bad day

Exercise can help

Not because of the chemicals induced by moving, but because of the pain.

Pain… I am told, will not,make you feel better. Blood… will not stop the tears.

This may be true, but it is not the whole truth. Because sometimes pain is the only thing there is to feel. Pain of the flesh that I can control. Or pain of the mind heart and soul which is beyond anything I know. I choose to be in control every time.

Do not worry for me.

I don't break myself like some do to be in control. I don't tie off my limb and slice into my flesh to feel in control.

I go outside…

Ride my bike until i can't feel my legs anymore

Jump on the trampoline until I fall on my butt and can't muster up the strength to pick myself back up.

I run until my lungs are screaming in my chest.

I push until my vision is speckled with black and cloudy around the edges.

I work every muscle until I can't even fill my lungs enough to keep me conscious… then when I come to, I force my acidic body to work some more.

A/N
Some times you will have a bad day and that's ok. Dont let one bad day, one bad moment force you to let go of all your pain. Pushing through it is the best way to go sometimes and thats ok. But please never hurt yourself in I have to go to the hospital now kind of way. I'm here to talk, there are people willing to talk. We are waiting for you to tell us, we will listen. 💜