Behind closed doors

Chapter Five

I feel different emotions all the time but at this time my fear and my dread are intensified. I walked past the students waiting for the buses to arrive. My walk home wasn't as peaceful as it is in the morning, I hated going back to that house. If I could I would run in the opposite direction but that would only lead to more problems.

It does feel right to walk back to my living hell, so my brain and my heart are always fighting. I'm smart enough to know that if I did try to run I would be back in that house tonight, but it causes my heart a lot of emotional distress knowing that I can't stop what is happening.

I was so lost in though that I didn't realize the familiar black mustang pull up beside me. One honk from the horn and I was out of my trance, looking to the side I saw him. He look mentally exhausted and his messed up hair didn't help.

"Do you need a ride?" I definitely heard him but my mind was more focused on his voice.

A small grin laid on his face unlike the smirk earlier. It was still enough to move my mind to his question. Why would he want to give me a ride?

I shook my head and continued on my way. I hated the idea of anything bringing me to that place quicker. Looking over I saw the he was following me with his car.

"Come on, we can do something fun." Fun? Define the word fun. I held myself back from asking Siri what the definition of fun was only because I didn't want him to look at me like I'm stupid.

  "I can't.." I faintly spoke to a point where I didn't even think he would hear me.

  "Come on, I'm sure your parents wouldn't mind. I also think you would loosen up more."

I wanted fun. I wanted to say ok. I wanted to hop in his car. But they stopped me, what they would do to me if I came home late. His voice rang in my head giving me a headache, I hated being afraid of them because they were supposed to love me but instead they only use me.

"Ok." My voice came out clear. I was shocked, I can't believe I just said that. My eyes widened for a second and I was mentally scolding myself.

"Jump in." His eyes lit up like a child on Christmas, it was nearly impossible to resist it. I hated making people sad no matter what they did to me so seeing him so happy brought a little tiny bit of joy to me.

I walked to the other side and quickly got in. I felt out of place, this wasn't like me to do this.

"So you want to go to your house, mine or somewhere else?" I needed to go home. He really was polite but he still seemed off.

  "Mine.." I mumbled softly. He quickly nodded as I put the address in his gps.

  I don't know if I wasn't clear enough or if I didn't understand is question fully. As of this minute I'm trying to make excuses of why he couldn't come into the house.

"I really can't have company over maybe another time.." he was starting to get on my nerves. No matter what I said he would counter it with why it wouldn't matter.

  "I'm sure if I am very polite and make a great first impression they will love me." Just go! I really wanted to scream at him but I still feel like he wouldn't get the clue.

All of a sudden the door slammed open and James stood on the other side. Why couldn't he get the clue and leave when I told him.

"Who's this?" He seemed sorta sober but I knew it wouldn't last long.

"Hello sir, im Adam." Are you Kidding me. He's gonna get me in so much trouble.

"Why are you here?" I could see the anger bubbling deep within him but it wouldn't be noticeable by Adam.

"Well your daughter invited me." This asshole. I'm gonna get cut tonight and it's all his fault.

"Oh, why didn't you say so. Come on in!" James exclaimed. After Adam walk inside i went to follow him. I felt a shooting pain up my arm and look over at James.

"You're dead."