So I need to tell you. It's really embarrassing. There's this guy I really like, but we've never actually met in person. We got to know each other and have been friends for a long time. We have the same interests and he knows more about me than anyone else I've had a face to face talk with. He knows my secrets and I my dreams and stuff that I'm really afraid of. I really think I'm almost in love with him.
Besides the distance I also have very bad trust issues. But since we've known each other so long and text each other all the time I've told him all my secrets, because I told him I would try to trust him. The last piece to me completely trusting him will happen when I see him. If he stays the same I will fall so fast and probably won't regret it.
It's weird writing an actual love letter for me because I'm really outgoing person but very private. I have different faces I show to different people but he knows them all and I just, I can't put all my feelings down for him in a way that will make people understand exactly how I feel. Oh! I know. I can just go through my text messages and write down pieces of what we said to each other to show you exactly what I mean.
Me: Lol. I'm trying to figure out where my mom is so I asked an employee by the exit. Did you hear my mom walk by?
Him: That sounds like a low key insult XD
Another time; Me: So yeah like that except it's more suttle at 1st.
Him: Hope that subtlety works.
Me; :D Well your subtlety certainly did. Thanks again.
Him: Interesting irony 300
Me: I almost considered making a horrible sounding joke about irons or food.
Him: Do it.
Me: Well I hope you don't give me too much beef about my irony.
Me: So you're going to watch a baseball game. Who's playing?
Him: Nationals and Braves, I believe.
Me: Ok then. Teams I do not know at all.
Him: No kidding, we both know you're no sports fan.
He texted me this one time: We all have history. They're just dates, nothing to worry about.
Me: Lol. I am your personal pop up blocker.
Him: Actually you're the pop up that I'm glad to see.
Ok these are cute but don't really show what I mean. I'm writing this late at night and I'm tired. But i can't because I'm writing this love letter. Since I share everything with him he knows all about my writing and then he'll read this. Pretty sure I'm gonna be very embarrassed soon if he mentions it to me. That reminds me. If you are reading this. I told you I'd write a letter for you. Here's the first one of probably more to come. Hope you like it.
