Bexley's pov
I sat on his lap just thinking. Thinking about stuff like if him kissing me feels that good how would sex feel? I know I need to get my thoughts under control. I scanned my eyes up and down his body and I sighed, closing my eyes to get sleep because it was like midnight. I felt his hand resting on my hip and his thumb softly rubbed my skin. His breathing as steady and his heart rate was kinda fast. I started drifting off to sleep until my phone started ringing. I grabbed my phone hitting the green button before I even looked who it was.
"Hello?" I said, you could hear how tired I was in the sound of my voice.
"Baby! You didn't message me? Are you staying the night with your friend?" I heard my mom ask.
"Yes mom clearly I am." I said with a bit of attitude since she's calling at midnight to ask.
"Don't get that tone with me! I was worried you usually answer my texts."
"Sorry I forgot to message you after I asked my friend if I was cool." I said as I rolled onto my stomach.
"Well the Jameson's might be moving into that empty house next door! With the Blakes!"
I gulped harshly, "the Blakes?"
"Yeah, they knew they couldn't afford the move out of England alone so the Blakes are coming with them! Aren't you excited?"
"Yeah mommy I can't wait... I'm gonna get sleep goodnight. Love you." I said quickly before hanging up and slamming my phone onto the nightstand a bit too hard.
"Baby. Hey, what's wrong?" Kimetrius said softly as he rubbed my back. I felt the panic rushing over my body. I started sweating and shaking. My mom never knew about my ex, I kept him fairly private. More like he didn't want to be seen with me... but his name was Justin Blake, yes he is moving next door.
I couldn't calm down so I got up pulling the hoodie off of me, not caring anymore. I was sweating.
"Baby. Hey, come here."
I curled up to Kimetrius and I started balling my eyes out. Then I mumbled something I thought I'd never say, "I never want to go home." Which I didn't say because of my mom or baby brother, who I love so much, but because of him.
"Why are you saying that? You love your mom, and Sebastian." He said, shocked by me saying that.
"J-Justin." I said as I started breathing heavy.
"Baby. Shh. It's okay. Deep breaths." I could tell he was kinda panicking, not really knowing how to deal with this situation.
I pulled myself together and I realized it was like 1:30 in the morning.
"I'm sorry I kept you up this late." I mumbled as he dug through his bedside table.
"It's cool I don't really sleep much." He said pulling out a few things. He set the stuff on the bed and I looked at it.
Okay I'm lost now, what is this?
"Do you smoke?" He asked as he opened the shiny bag thing that said "Backwoods" in bold lettering.
"Uhm no I don't." I said confused.
He looked at me and smiled "you look lost. Do you wanna smoke?"
"Uh yeah why not." I said knowing I had nothing to loose.
He so meticulously rolled the plant into the backwood thing. He set the stuff back in his bedside table and he grabbed a lighter. He lit it and then tossed the lighter back where he grabbed it.
He hit it and blew out the smoke before saying "you ever smoked a cig?"
"Yeah once" I said quietly as my thumb gently touched the burn scar from the cigarette that Justin took out of my mouth and put out on my arm. Kimetrius looked at it but didn't mention it.
"Hit it like a cig but not as hard."
I grabbed it from him, hitting it kinda softly, feeling it kinda burn my throat and make me wanna cough. I breathed out the smoke handing it back to him, holding back the urge to cough.
"Damn your like a pro." He said with a smile before kissing me, his empty hand touching my exposed torso.
After we finished smoking I laid in bed, finally for once in my life not in a small state of panic. I was calm and happy.
I rolled onto my side facing Kimetrius. "So" I said stringing out the o much too long. He turned towards me, a small smile pulling at his lips.
"Yes Bex?"
"I don't know. I want something but I don't know what." I said with a quiet giggle.
I seen his eyes skim down my body, stop for a moment of my exposed torso, then back up to my eyes. I bit my lip softly and I moved my hand to touch his shirtless chest. I wanted him, bad, but I don't wanna move too fast. He smiled and turned something on the tv but I didn't pay it much mind. I curled up to Kimetrius and he wrapped his arm around me. I was super tired so I just fell asleep, hoping I'd wake up without a hangover tomorrow.
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Okay sorry it took me about 30 years to write this. It's currently 5:30 am on a Sunday and I am surprised I'm even awake. But hey this chapter is finally ok and ready to be posted. (Also I changed this chapter like 6 times no joke)
