family is all that matters

chapter 11

our cute and nice moment didnt last long when me and momma heard everybody yelling and talking so loud." wha the hell is all this damn screaming i dont have time for this" momma said as we walked back into the house. when we got in we heard chamiya and a froggy lookin bitch arguing. " look bitch aint nobody wanna see you with you being all loud and shit tha aint gonna get you no were, so fix that sit real quick before you see momma april" my sister said. the girl just rolled her eyes and walked over to me and momma. " she put you on hush mode tho" ja's cousin side laughing in a corner somewere. i just chuckled to my self." look momma april i dont know-" she started but you know i cut that shit real quick. "first you talking to momma so imma need you to show some respect. or dont say anything at all " i said plain and simple i aint got time for these basics. " i dont have time to deal wit you so i aint even gonna say nothin....but momma april i have a 4 yr old son and i think that he is Ja's son" she said. when she said i couldnt even be mad. its not like he knew and it was before we even started getting together so i see no point. i just walked to the other side and sat down. " well were is the baby honey" momma said in a sweet voice. "joseph come here!"  she yelled. all you see is a lil boy that walked up slowly like he was scared. she grabbed him by the waist and pulled him up. " didnt i say come here dont play with me boy" she kinda whispered but im nosey so i heard everything." momma april this is joseph, joseph this is your grandma" she said. " hi" he said in a shy voice. " no need to be shy around me honey im your grandma, you know you look like yor father" momma said to him while pulling him in a hug. she put him donw and turned to the girl. " now what is your name" momma said asking the girl. " my name shayla". " well shayla he does look like Ja but just to make sure when his other child is born then we ca have a DNA test done" momma said. " other child?? who the girl carrying his other baby?" now you know i had to say somethin. " me is there a problem ". " nah just make sure that when that babys born tell me so i can get this est and get everything i need for my baby" she said. i already didnt like her like she just puts off a bad vibe for some reason. i guess well figure it out. i just staired at her and then knelt down to jospeh. " hey buddy". " hi". " haha dont be shy around me imma gonna have your baby brother or baby sister so you have to get comfortable with me ok" " yes mam" and call me kay, im not that old" he laughed and gave me hug " i wanna come and spend time with you" he whispered in my hear so nobody can hear. " ill work something out ight" . his whole face changed. "ok". momma started talking i guess she saw his face. " i think i wanna keep him for the week if thats ok with you". " yeah idc he can stay you want me to come back back with clothes orr" " no its ok we will handle that but thanks see you later though" momma said tryna get her out the house. " bye joseph" she yelled to him on her way out. but he didnt say anythin he just looked around and saw all of us stairing at him, he did look alot like Ja. then ja's cousin comes out the cut. " ayye lil dude im your cousin but you can call me drew ight." he said dapping him up." ok drew can i have some food please" joseph said. we all laughed and went on about our lives. i decided to take drew outside and talk to him cause idk who in the hell he is. " hey drew come over here real quick". I said. he saw heard me and came over and walked outside and sat on the porch. " so whats up ma" he asked. " how come i never met you" i asked being nosey. " cuase i just moved down here.". i looked at himfor a sec. " were you close to Ja. " yeah we were close but then a year ago we stopped talking cause we lost contact and earlier in the year we talked and he knew i was coming" he said then he said " trust me he aint gone lil ma just go with the flow." and when he said he was right i didnt feel like he was gone. but it still hurt. i gave him a hug and walked back inside to say goodbye to momma i think it was time for me to go. " momma i think im ready to go ill see later ok" i said while kissing her on her cheek and giving her a hug. " ok baby but can you come tomrrow to take him shopping to get clothes." i couldnt say no to her. " yes mam have him ready by 12" i said while giving him a hug and walking out . my sister and brother decided they were gonna stay just incase something else happend. lord knows they nosey.

i went home and took everythin off. i just layed in my bed and started thinking and then i started to cry. i missed him so much. i finally got up and decided to take a shower. i took a 30 min shower and it felt so good when the hot water just hit my skin. i thought that it was time to go to sleep so i just went in my bad and layed there for a sec and was knocked.

MOMMA APRIL POV

when everyone left i decided that i would get to know my new grandchild. and i know that Ja's not dead, its only me and his cousin that know. but he only told me cause imma his momma and everyone thinks im dead. but if your wondering why he's not youll figure it out sooner or later. and if your also wondering why was a crying at "funeral" i only was crying because kay is like a duaghter to me and to see her go through so much pain was hurting me i could tell shes gonna go through the struggle throughout her pregnancy with Ja being gone. but enough of all that sadness. " joseph come here for a minute honey" i yelled for him cause i knew he was upstairs. i heard his little feet coming down the stairs so i jus sat on the couch and waited for him to sit. " yes grandma". "well baby i just wanted to talk....how is it living with your mom" i sorta felt like that was a bad question cause he went from happy to sad face. " its....its ok i wish i could live with you though" he said about to tear up a lil. " and why is that". " cause mom never pays attetion to me she always forgets about meand she never gives me food and never wanna stay in that house with all that smoke but she doesnt care when i tell her." he said to me. " well maybe you could stay here for awhile but idk if you could live here but ill work on it though ok". " ok". " alright now go get ready to bed kay is gonna pick you up in the morning. ill be up in a minute". "ok grandma and i like kay, i think i want her to be my mom grandma, shes nice i feel good around her but she doesnt want me" he said with his head down. " and why do you think that ". " she already has a baby". " but that doesnt mean that she wont love you". " ok grandma goodnight and i love you" he said half way up the stairs. i love him already to. " i love you too baby sleep tight." my phone stated to ring and i knew who it was cause nobody called me on my buisness phone.

*PHONE CONVERSATION*

MOMMA: HEY BABY WASSUP

jA: MOMMA I DONT KNOW HOW I CAN DO THIS I MISS KAY AND YOU SO MUCH ITS TO HARD AND FOR ME TO EVEN KNOW THAT SHE GOING THROUGH PAIN IS HURTING MOMMA IT REALY IS

MOMMA: BABY I KNOW ITS HURTING CAUSE ITS HURTING ME HEARING YOU SAY THAT IT HURTS, BUT YOU ARE THE ONE THAT PROMISED TO PROTECT HER AND AS HER PROTECTOR YOU GOTTA DO WHAT YOU GOTTA DO

JA: BUT MOMMA I FEEL LIKE IM BAD FOR LEAVING HER ALONE

MOMMA: NOW LISTEN HERE SON YOU ARE NOT BAD YOU ARE PROTECTING HER TO KEEP HER SAFE FROM DANGER IT WOULD BE BAD IF ANYTHING HAPPENED TO HER OR THE BABY OR EVEN YOUR SON SO PLEASE GETTCHO ASS TOGETHER BEFORE I COME DOWN THERE AND BEAT IT.

JA: YOU RIGHT MOM-...DID YOU JUST SAY BABY AND ITS A SON

MOMMA: NO I SAID BABY AND YOUR SON

JA: MOMMA WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT

MOMMA: KAY IS PREGNANT SHE TOLD ME TODAY AND SOME GIRL NAMED SHAYLA CAME HERE WITH A SON EARLIER WHEN EVERYONE WAS HERE AND SAID THAT YOU MIGHT BE THE FATHER OF HER SON HES SLEEPING RIHG NOW AND-

JA: MOMMA SHAYLA IS A HOE AND YOU HAVE THAT KID IN THERE DONT GET TO ATTACH CUASE IT MIGHT NOT BE MINE YOU NEED TO GET A DNA TEST DONE CAUSE I WONT CLAIM THAT TILL THE TEST

MOMMA; HAVE YOU LOS YOUR DAMN MIND.......SHE MAYBE A HOE BUT WHEN YOY WAS 16 YOU DEICDED NO TO WRAP UP AND SHE GOT PREGNANT AND THAT BOY LOOK WAY TO MUCH LIKE YOU FOR HIM NOT TO BE YOURS SO DONT GIVE ME THAT DONT GET TO ATACH SHIT AND I WAS ALREADY GONNA GET A DNA TEST ALREADY..DAMN

JA: IM SORRY MOMMA IM JUST A MESS RIGHT NOW AND SEND ME A PICTURE OF HIM AND WHATS HIS NAME

MOMMA: HIS NAME IS JOSEPH AND TODAY HE TOLD ME HE WANTS KAY TO BE HIS NEW MOMMY I THINK THAT SOMETHING GOING ON IN HIS HOUSE BUT IMMA TALK TO KAY TOMOROW WHEN SHE GETS HIM

JA: IS SHE MAD

MOMMA: NO SHE SAID SHE HAS NO REASON TO BE

JA: MOMMA I WANT HER TO TAKE CUSTODY TO IF THATS WHAT YOUR THINKING AND MOMMA YOU KNOW WHATS SO FUNNY

MOMMA: YEA IT WAS AND WHAT

JA: ME AND KAY ONLY HAD SEX ONCE AND SHES PREGNANT

MOMMA: BABY IT ONLY TAKE ONCE

JA: YOU RIGHT MA WELL I GOTTA GO GOODNIGHT AND I LOVE YOU MA

MOMMA: I LOVE YOU TO BABY..STAY SAFE

*END OF PHONE CONVERSATION*