I clearly remember how things started
That shy~type guy in his teen
His expressive eyes and flowy hair
How can I forget?
I've been trying to hide this damn feelings
I'm just thirteen and still playing
But how can i refuse that kind of innocent look?
It melts my heart and for sure it's something new.
Every day, then, I always find a way
To peak in our room just to see his handsome face
But to my dismay, he doesn't seem to care
He's avoiding my eyes as if I have a flu.
How can you love someone from afar?
Cascading dreams with my eyes open wide
My thoughts are drifting
With you and i alone.
A sudden twist in fate,
I'm one lucky porcelain.
He's no longer a stranger,
Believe me, I got to know his name.
I sing in delight,
And hum like a ragged doll.
His name continuously ringing,
And popping in my head.
It was that smile,
That ignite the spark.
It lighted the flame,
How i wish it won't die.
A cattleya blooms from a field of carnation,
My heart skips a beat
as I picked it from the rest.
That one of a kind epiphytic flower,
Glows beyond compare.
A close friend wakes me from my unending sleep,
Just to say the words I've been longing to hear.
Cupid's arrow strikes his heart,
Yes, I do feel like Psyche
Cupid's forever dear.
But how can I say that the feeling is mutual?
How can i say that he will forever be my man?
How can i say that it's you that i want?
I do lost for words and anxiety attacks.
A new school year unfolds,
A new page of my book unfurls.
New section, new friends, and new classmates
But i'm constantly looking for a boy and that is you.
How lucky i am that year,
It's just a wall that separate me to him.
I go to school with a genuine smile,
That no amount of money can buy.
He never changes even an inch,
He's still the same guy i like and adore,
The same guy that makes me go-loco.
How i wish to seat beside him,
And tell him that i want him so desperately.
I can feel his soft hand caressing my bedimpled cheeks,
Assuring me that we will forever be.
He speaks infinity,
And i listen til eternity.
Love begets love
Oh love so tender and kind.
It was then when i realized,
That it's not as easy as that.
He doesn't know what i feel
He thinks that i don't like him that much.
The love i have for him is incomparable,
And i've been keeping it for years.
Suitors come and go
And i won't get tired of saying no.
I want him to be my first,
First love, first boyfriend,
First embrace, and first kiss.
I've been longing for that time to come,
I've been longing to be his woman.
Someting unexpected happened,
I've found out that he already have his girl.
That girl is not me,
And we won't forever be.
My heart was scattered into pieces,
And honestly I don't know how to get it back.
I'm deeply wounded,
I'm completely devastated.
Sleepless nights have been normal,
Having no appetite seems a curse.
How can someone i love,
Hurts me this way.
I never thought it would happen,
It's my worst nightmare.
I don't want to see his face,
I don't want to see him cuddling with his girl.
How i wish i can turn back the time,
The time when i don't love him that much.
I keep on hiding my feelings
I was hurt, yes, but i want to get even.
He had his girl, i will get mine
No strings attached,
And that will be quits.
How ironic to say yes,
To someone I don't like.
How awful is to hold hands,
To someone I don't love.
Months of disguise,
Weeks of agony.
Days of torture,
I can no longer count.
We graduated and parted ways,
I'm clueless if he still remember my name.
It's been 20 years and still counting,
Those moments are still fresh in my memory.
Yes, he may not be my first love
Nor my great love.
But he's definitely my man,
When I was young and still thirteen.
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