Dialogue II

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4:30 AM; 20010323 

Tawny:  so did you turn it on? 

Exé:  looks like it.  Did you? 

Exé:  I had offline messages from her. 

Exé:  heart wrenching.  You must know. 

Exé:  but I'm the guy…  Isn't that a boot to the head? 

Exé:  Aren't I supposed to be the asshole? 

Tawny:  if you love her tell her 

Exé:  I think I am way past the place where I think what I feel matters. 

Exé:  I'm even past the place where I think what I /think/ matters. 

Exé:  The only thing that matters is action.  I am inactive, so it doesn't matter. 

Tawny:  what went wrong did she tell you? 

Exé:  I'm happy you found me.  I was going to try to go back to social poker to get your id. 

Exé:  she told me, but it doesn't seem to have a basis in the reality I'm accostomed to. 

Exé:  and anyway— you're a girl!!  If she told the truth, the complete truth and was completely right 

Exé:  would I admit it all to you? 

Exé:  and if I did, would it be a clensing or a way to say: "leave me alone, I'm baaaaaaaaad" 

Exé:  Actually I think I know what is wrong. 

Tawny:  what is the reason? 

Exé:  Our distance cause frequent miscommunication. 

Exé:  Anyway this is a somewhat troubling topic.  Do you mind if we talk about something less… sensitive? 

Tawny:  so you dont live in the same place? 

Exé:  oh.  You must have logged in later in the convo.  No, we don't. 

Tawny:  lol yes i did 

Exé:  But really, truly … I will do anything to change the subject. 

Tawny:  lol ok tell me more about yourself 

Exé:  We can talk about it if you really want to, but I bet we've both had the conversation before.  and I don't want to be on this side of it. 

Exé:  ohkay, but if I'm going to do that — tell you about me, it has to be answer for question, question for answer, k? 

Tawny:  its ok i dont want to make you uncomfortable 

Exé:  I'm uncomfortable, you aren't making me anything.  I'd just rather not discuss it.  Ya know?  Its something I have to dwell on in private… 

Exé:  I'm certain you understand.  I think everyone has broken up with someone, and everyone has been broken up with. 

Exé:  strangely — this is interesting, about me — I am rarely the one someone breaks up with. 

Exé:  I'm usually the one doing the breaking up. 

Exé:  what about you?  (since we're still close to the topic) 

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