4:30 AM; 20010323
Tawny: so did you turn it on?
Exé: looks like it. Did you?
Exé: I had offline messages from her.
Exé: heart wrenching. You must know.
Exé: but I'm the guy… Isn't that a boot to the head?
Exé: Aren't I supposed to be the asshole?
Tawny: if you love her tell her
Exé: I think I am way past the place where I think what I feel matters.
Exé: I'm even past the place where I think what I /think/ matters.
Exé: The only thing that matters is action. I am inactive, so it doesn't matter.
Tawny: what went wrong did she tell you?
Exé: I'm happy you found me. I was going to try to go back to social poker to get your id.
Exé: she told me, but it doesn't seem to have a basis in the reality I'm accostomed to.
Exé: and anyway— you're a girl!! If she told the truth, the complete truth and was completely right
Exé: would I admit it all to you?
Exé: and if I did, would it be a clensing or a way to say: "leave me alone, I'm baaaaaaaaad"
Exé: Actually I think I know what is wrong.
Tawny: what is the reason?
Exé: Our distance cause frequent miscommunication.
Exé: Anyway this is a somewhat troubling topic. Do you mind if we talk about something less… sensitive?
Tawny: so you dont live in the same place?
Exé: oh. You must have logged in later in the convo. No, we don't.
Tawny: lol yes i did
Exé: But really, truly … I will do anything to change the subject.
Tawny: lol ok tell me more about yourself
Exé: We can talk about it if you really want to, but I bet we've both had the conversation before. and I don't want to be on this side of it.
Exé: ohkay, but if I'm going to do that — tell you about me, it has to be answer for question, question for answer, k?
Tawny: its ok i dont want to make you uncomfortable
Exé: I'm uncomfortable, you aren't making me anything. I'd just rather not discuss it. Ya know? Its something I have to dwell on in private…
Exé: I'm certain you understand. I think everyone has broken up with someone, and everyone has been broken up with.
Exé: strangely — this is interesting, about me — I am rarely the one someone breaks up with.
Exé: I'm usually the one doing the breaking up.
Exé: what about you? (since we're still close to the topic)
