I am alone.
I am alone in my bed,
raindrops hitting with a steady
thump against the sill
and ledge.
It's time to dredge up memories
I am alone my room,
a dark cloud of gloom hangs
like christmas lights tight around me.
Choking me.
suffocate on silence
I am alone in this flat,
a distinct lack of family frolic
within the halls. Their absence
is spat in your face.
fill yourself with hate
I am alone in my head,
and it fills me with dread,
wishing me to break down
slow dow n
give up
stop
Instead
I will keep going
Reach out with invisible arms
and grab invisible strings
which connect invisible things and take me to a
voice
A face
Some words
A case full of people who
will listen
will love
will like
will accept
won't shout
won't clout
I won't
be alone
The memories become only silent scars
The silence will be stopped
The hate will ebb away
The thoughts are only thoughts
I felt more alone when surrounded by those
in my past,
then am now, alone, but on
a path lined with people.
I am not alone.
They will not let me be,
because all they want of me
is
me.
