For the first time in a long time, I thought about what he thought about me. Was I too loud, I asked myself. Or was I too wild for him, or couldn't he handle my crazy. Is that why he hadn't called, though he said he'll text me. Does a football game take such a long time? Or is it that he doesn't want to see me again?
Why am I wondering these things? Do I like him that much or was it the way he made me feel when we'd talk about languages and music and our interests or was it the fact that I slept with him just after meeting him for the first time. Did he not think I was serious or was he just tired and slept after the match he had?
Maybe because I told him I liked him...maybe...I don't know
I feel so tempted to text him, or just call him. I mean shouldn't the guy text first? Who said guys had to text first? But it would make me feel better if he did. Did I go too far by getting drunk? Did I say something crazy, I can't remember that well. All I know is that I told him a thousand times that I like him, I think. Then we had sex. It was good. He's not the biggest or smallest I've had or seen, it was quite alright, not big, not small. Lol, what am I talking about?
Should I text him first? Is it weird for the girl to text first? Should I? I mean, is he wondering if he should text me? Is he thinking the same thing I'm thinking...? Should I call him?
I'm a pretty confident person and I go for what I want unless it doesn't want me back. Should I text him...? Or call him? I mean I could wait for 2 more hours and see what he says...or doesn't say
Ahhh I hate feeling this way. It's driving me crazy cause I'm used to guys chasing after me...now I don't want them but kinda want him now...Am I being crazy or too forward? Oh God, was I too forward? I mean he kissed me first soooo, that's good. I always thought Asian guys were shy. I mean I had something one with some dude from the Philippines. But it was terrible cause he was just too shy and I had a feeling he felt inferior to me, I guess I'm way too wild for some people to handle. Well, I guess that's true cause I'm the weirdest in my crew sooooo haha, I just wish he'd text me though.
The wait is driving me crazy. Why can't he just text me, this is why I don't do long distance because it drives the other crazy.
He's quite cute, and quite my style too. Someone who listens, not just listens but also replies. Oh no, I think I blew it...why isn't he texting me? Before he left he said I'll text you. We hugged, we didn't kiss tho, cause he was about to miss his bus.
Ahh 몰라
