Jin Kyung
I walked out the door that morning, I was upset, for one, but, I hoped I would have a better day today. I threw on my ripped jeans, black converse, and my oversized hoodie I stole from someone. I ate my daily breakfast and walked out of the door. As I was walking outside to go to school, I felt eyes watching me. I looked around but then I realized it was just my Neighbor, Namjoon. I always thought he was weird, he would always be on his phone texting, or in that journal he carries around all the time. I wonder why he's always in that journal of his. I was a little late to school so, i missed my first period class. Oops, life sucks. I walked into school and saw Namjoon again. I mean it doesn't bother me at all but i always see him everywhere. I feel like he's stalking me.. But oh well.
Lunch time came around, i haven't talked to anyone at all today. I just don't feel like myself. I don't feel alright.. Not at all. At lunch, my friends asked me what was up.
"Jin Kyung.. Whats up? You've been ignoring all of our texts, calls, and not answering your door. Tell us whats up. We are here for you no matter whats happening in your life. We love you, now please tell us whats going on.." Ha-Yoon said very concerned.
"guys.." I said very teary eyed, "I hate myself in every way. I don't see what i think everyone else sees.."
They all pulled me into a group hug, "You're going to be okay Jinnie." When we stopped hugging, i could still feel eyes on me, i started to get creeped out and very insecure.. I thought to myself Someone is stalking me. But the question is.. Who?
"Finally" I sighed as i walked out of school. I put in my headphones and started listening to one of my favorite playlists, "Time not to give a shit". i LOVE I MEAN LOVE that playlist. I turn the volume up all the way and started walking towards my house and not towards a tea shop i always go too. I noticed someone following me so i turned around.. and Namjoon was on the other side of the road. I keep forgetting that he is there. I looked at him and smiled. Then, we both made weird eye contact. I remember those eyes, The same old eyes i saw in 5th grade..
I looked away as I got to my house, Tomorrow will just be another normal day, i said to myself as i sighed. I laid on my bed and fell into a deep sleep.
Today i woke up a tiny bit late. By tiny i mean legit only 5 minutes until second period. I looked behind me to notice i wasn't the only one late. Namjoon was late too. We made eye contact but then i looked away. We both sat down at our desks and the teacher called us out into the hallway after.
"Ms. Jin Kyung. Mr. Kim, Out into the hallway please." She said in a serious tone. Fucking christ not again. I said to myself quietly.
"This is the 5th time you've both been late to class. And today, I'm tired of it. After school, you both will be cleaning the bathrooms. Do i make myself clear?"
"Yes ma'am" we said in unison, She walked back into class and we looked at each other and i cracked a smile.
I flopped down at lunch time. When i cracked a smile, i felt something, but i don't know what it was. Like at that moment, I forgot about everything. So at lunch i decided to come clean with my friends.
"Hey Jin Kyung. Whats up? you look upset. What's the matter?" They said as they grabbed my hand.
"Nothing. I'm fine." I put on a fake smile and continued to eat my lunch.
The rest of the day went by pretty fast, even I was surprised. I walked out of the school building forgetting that i have to stay and clean the bathrooms with namjoon. I got to my house then i remember. "HOLY SHIT!!" I ran as fast as i could back to the school. I stopped to see namjoon sitting in front of the school.
"I'm. so. sorry. i . forgot. shit." I said panting. he stood up smiling, "It's.. fine." he said shyly. "I cleaned the bathrooms for us.." I looked at him and smiled, "Oh my god.. Namjoon you didn't have too. Next time we're late and we have to clean the bathrooms, i'll do it. I promise." I pulled him into a hug. I could see him blushing. It was cute. Mainly because i really haven't talked to him since like 5th grade..
"Hey!!" i came running into the classroom trying to catch up with my friends as they walk into the classroom, but then made a complete stop right in the classroom door ways.
"Hey!! Why'd you stop?!" I yelled as i ran into them.
Ha-Yoon tapped my shoulder, "Isn't that Namjoon? The one you use to be friends with when you were like 5?" She said as she pointed at Namjoon getting pushed around and the "popular" kid, Dae-Hee, poured his milk all over him. Namjoon sat there letting them bully him. I pushed my friends out of the way and screamed, "YA! WHAT DO YOU THINK YOUR DOING?!" They looked at me and laughed, Namjoon stood up and looked at me.
"DO YOU THINK IT'S POLIET TO POUR YOUR MILK OVER SOMEONE?!" I grabbed someones milk opened the bottle and poured it all over him, "HOW DO YOU LIKE GETTING MILK POURED ALL OVER YOU?!" Everyone turned around and laughed at Dae-Hee.
"DISREPECTFUL!!" I said as I grabbed Namjoon's hand and pulled him to the Bathroom. I turned on the water and grabbed a towel to start cleaning off his face from the sticky milk.
"Y-You didn't have to do that.." He stuttered
I smiled, "i don't HAVE to do anything. I wanted too." I looked up at him to see he was smiling.
"T-Thank you Jin kyung.." He said as he smiled
"No problem Namjoon"
~ end of flashback ~
I went back home and i felt kid of abnormal. I walked inside of my house and i felt this kind of negativity. I don't know why. I looked up into the living room and i saw majority of my family sitting right there on the couch, They were crying and looking at photos, "Hey guys,, what's up?" i said weirdly, "Why are all of you here? Is it a special Holiday i forgot about?" They patted a to a seat next to them, "We need to talk.. It's about your mother.." I stood in the doorway of my home staring at them in disbelief, "No. No. No. this can't be happening.." I said over and over again. I began to become light headed, little by little my breath shortened one by one. I dropped all my stuff and ran out of the house, i couldn't breathe. I looked down the street to see Someone walking towards me. I collapse into their arms. I look up to see it's Namjoon, "Namjoon.." I started to say without trying cry, "My m-mother d-died.." He held me tight in his arms, "Shh. It's okay.." We stayed in that position for so long, my tears fell one by one as he held me in his arms. We both stood up and took a walk. To me, It felt really nice, I can't ever tell my friends about this. I don't want their goddamn pitty I get every single day.
When we got home it was around 1 or 2 in the morning. I walked inside my door and went into my room and locked the door. I laid down in the bed, looking at my window towards Namjoon's house softly smiling.
The next morning, I walked into school in my sweatpants and a sweatshirt, Today wasn't like any other day. I don't know why but i avoided my apparent 'friends'. I was sitting in my fourth hour class, my headphones in and my nose in my book, The Children of Eden. I'm mainly alone in the classroom. I sit in very back far from my usual seating, in the front of the room next to all of my friends. I'm sitting alone then out of nowhere someone comes up and sits next to me. I look up to namjoon smiling, his dimples popping out when he does, his soft warm eyes when I look into them, it's all mesmerizing, his beauty is just- I have no words. I smile back, closing my book and taking out one of my earbuds. He continues to look at me then looks at my book, picking it up. "The Children of Eden huh? It's a good one, i've read it so many times, I love it." I nodded, continuing to look at him, resting my head into my hands, "I love reading it. This is my seventh time reading it" He smiles brightly reaching into his backpack pulling out his copy of the book, opening it up. "Well let's read shall we?" I turned back to my book, starting to read again, smiling while Namjoon is next to me reading the same thing, I grab my other earbud putting it into his ear. I don't know ever since yesterday i've been attached to him, a few weeks have passed and i'm still like that. It's like he comes up to me and my heart just beats faster than usual, when he smiles i get shy and i smile like a fucking idiot..it's just ughh!!!!
