Change - Erlu

Forgiveness

Once again, I do not own Fairy Tail or the lovable characters.

Erza's POV

I pull myself away from Lucy. I can't do this. I can't believe I almost did. I let go of her completely and turn around, walking towards through the living room towards the front door. 

"I'm sorry Lucy. I'll leave you alone." I murmur and I make it halfway through the room, wallowing in self-pity and embarrassment the entire time when my arm is grabbed and I am spun around and pulled back.

My eyes widen at the feel of Lucy's lips on mine. 

I tense up and my mind blanks for a second before I melt into the kiss and wrap my arms tightly around Lucy's waist pulling her flush against my body. Her hands make their way into my hair and the whole world around me has stopped. Every single fiber of my being focuses on one thing, the gorgeous celestial mage in my arms, the way her lips are moving against mine and the fireworks going off in my head. 

I feel something wet against my cheek and for a second I think I am crying but it registers in my mind that it's not me crying. Lucy pulls away before I can react and extracts her entire body from mine. I go to follow her, desperate to have her in my arms again but she does something that leaves me speechless.

Lucy slaps me.

My head whips to the side, mostly out of shock as there wasn't much force behind the blow, and my hand immediately flies up to the sting. I turn my head to look at Lucy and she looks just as surprised as I am. 

We stand there in silence staring at each other for a moment. Then, Lucy glares at me. I gasp in and am about to start rambling out apologies (for what, I have no idea) when she takes the two steps between us and grabs me by my collar, pulling me close to her face again.

For a second I think she's going to kiss me again but my hopes fall when she drops her head to my chest and I feel small sobs start to wrack her body. 

"Never leave me alone again." she says and my heart cracks at the weakness in her voice. She sounds broken. Her legs buckle and we fall to the floor on our knees with her face still sobbing into my chest.

"Lucy? What do you mean?" I ask gently. I remember saying that I would leave her alone before we kissed but I have no idea why that would cause such an outburst. Lucy takes a deep breath and tries to find her voice and I pet her head, trying to calm her down. She raises her head and I take a sharp intake of breath at the chocolate brown eyes filled with sorrow that stare into my own with tears tracking down her cheeks. I open my mouth to ask but she stops me.

"No wait, Erza. I need to get this off of me. Please." she whispers and I just nod. 

She closes her eyes, takes a deep breath in and then looks at me.

"I was left alone for a year." 

I flinched but didn't say anything.

"When I found out that Fairy Tail had disbanded, I lost a part of my soul. I thought that I had already lost one family member and now I was losing all of them. But then I thought that, even though the guild had gone, I would still be able to be with my family. Our team would stay together. We were team Natsu. We had faced way worse than this and we would pull through. Then Natsu and Happy left. Then Gray. And then Wendy. And even after I had lost practically everyone, I still thought that I could hold on because of one thing."

I braced myself.

"Because I still had you, Erza. Because you hadn't left me yet and you were the only one and because I.. I was in love with you."