Love Is a Complicated Thing... ~TomTord~

I Hate You...

Tom POV

Yesterday the worst thing happened,I can't stop crying...

        ~Flashback~

We took a trip to Asdf land yesterday,and everything was fine,almost having to leave because Matt ate 5 hot dogs before going on a huge ride,and throwing up 10 minutes after.Until Tord started to hit on chicks,which he did all the time,I started getting concerned when he started pay most of his attention onto her,then when it was time to leave,he asked to stay a bit longer,an hour later,he came back with the girl,looked us in the eyes,and interlocked his fingers with the girl,Edd seemed shocked,but then his surprised expression changed into a one of solemn when he looked at me,I was frozen unable to move,I wanted to yell,but I couldn't,And most of all..I wanted to cry,but the tears didn't flow,they were stuck I was paralyzed,so,I retreated to my room .....I hate you,Commie

      ~End of Flashback~

Toms POV (still)

I lay in my room,drinking like I never did before,Going over the other day again,thinking about him holding hands with Lizzy apparently that's her name,what a disgusting name,its disgusting to even say it, "Lizzy"I gag out loud,what does Tord see in her?......Tord,oh how I loath him, making me love him,then breaking me down,I knew he was up to something,I knew that sadness in his eyes was fake, 'but you were dumb enough to believe him,you greedy hog, if you loved him,you would let him be happy,but you're too selfish' whispered the voice,I can't stop hearing it,I shove my face in my pillow once more,unable to take it anymore, 'why are you crying? Stop with the tears,we all know they're fake,you know what to do...' it whispered,I walk over to my drawer,and pull out a dusty,sharp knife,stained with dried blood,I poke the tip with my finger,I watch as the crimson liquid oozes out of the open wound, "Just as sharp as I remember it..." I laughed painfully.I sit down and pull up my sleeve,to reveal many old,healed scars,I start the cuts at the tip of my wrist, "selfish" I whispered,choking back tears,one 'Attention Whore" two,this went on for quite a while before both my arms were covered in blood and open wounds,I wash off the blood,a bit woozy,but that's normal,I wrap my arms in gauze,put my hood on,and walked to the kitchen,I see the Commie and Lizzy making out,hoe... I barely touch my food, feeling as if I don't deserve it,voice still very loud,I wash up and leave the table,hissing when some of the soap leaked into the gauze, "Tom?are you okay? You barely touched your food?" Edd said,sounding like a concerned mother,I turn around and force a smile, "Nah,I'm just not really hungry right now." I lied,I was indeed starving, " Okay...." Edd said suspiciously,as I walk back to my room,Edd asks, "Hey Tom,why do you have gauze?"he's onto me, "I um,cut my arm on one of my Smirnoff bottles!" I lied,Edd looked skeptical until his face suddenly looked annoyed, "What have I told you? This wouldn't have happened if you kept your room clean!" Edd said,as though he was a mother getting into her child, "Got it" I said,not planning to do any of what he just said,I go back to my room,ready to continue my pathetic little pity-party,what a time to be alive,heh,that's a halarious fucking joke....

     ~Time Skip,brought to you by:all the tomtord shippers I'm torturing right now~

Tord POV 

Over the past week or two,me and the Jahovas Witnesses are getting more frequent,I started calling him that again after he started adressing me as commie again,little bastard,Edd has noticed this and has been trying to get us to get along again,but that's far from working,in fact it's just making it worse,but Edd still is persistent, "Tord?" Edd called, "No." I replied,I already know what he's going to say, "DO IT,OR IM SHOWING YOUR GIRLFRIEND YOUR HENTAI STASH!"Edd threatened,god dammit Edd, "UGH! Fine!" I groaned,this house is a fucking nightmare sometimes, I walked over to Toms room,and open the door to find Tom playing his beat up base,Susan,I wonder why he doesn't get rid of the damn thing,Tom looks up,expression contorting into one of disgust, "What the Fuck do you want,commie?"he said angrily, " Oh Fuck off Jahovas Witness,Edd just needs something." I replied "Oh shut the fuck up I know your lying." He said, "HAH!Like I'd make an excuse to talk to you!" I spat,Tom looked hurt for a moment before maintaining his previous look, "Well at least I'm not so desperate I'd date anyone I meet!" He shot back,angry I punched him in the chest,knocking him over,He looked up,ready for a fight, he punched me square in the face,and even though he's small,but he hits hard,I guess they were right,big things come in small packages,and sometimes,those bags can REALLY get in your nerves,I looked down,making eye contact,I gripped his hair,he hissed in pain,as was aiming for his eye, "HEY!" Shouted a male voice from behind us,fuck.

(Mwahhahahaha!A cliff hanger! Don't worry,this is still a tomtord book,the reason I didn't give her a bitchy name,is because we can use her >:D)