F e e l i n g s

I only want you,

Have you ever wanted someone so badly you literally do anything. You'd jump of a building if it would save their life. You'd probably even eat your least favorite food even if it was their favorite just for them, fucking green beans. Well me too. It's hard to breathe when you see them. Damn, you probably even get those fucking butterflies when you see them. Well my person is a boy, with big beautiful brown eyes, and curly brown hair not to long and not super short. He's also got a bit of a beard.. hehe. He's 18 years old. Not much older than me. He's kinda short for a guy though. He's about 5'4 but that is ok since I'm only 5'1. When I talk to him I know my face lights up and my mood shifts into a total different direction. No he's not Peter Kavinsky but he is so much more to me than that. Whenever I catch myself drifting I think of him. I bet right now you are also thinking of that special someone. I don't just want sex. I want so much more with him. With him it's different. I want those late night FaceTime calls just to say hi. I want those cute little date nights on the couch cuddle up together with blankets and fuzzy socks. I want that best friend you can tell anything to who is also your significance other, not just a lover. I want to parade him around and show the world what's mine. But most of all I want those long nights spent making memories on the roof top. Sneaking out to our favorite spot just to watch the stars. Jamming out to our favorite music while getting a high from each other. Living and loving like a teenager does, recklessly and free.
________________________________ hey, just a short little chapter this time sorry. Just kinda wrote a little of what was on my mind tonight.