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He stuck me to the wall and started kissing my neck, I tried to get him off of me but he was on me with his whole body. I screamed but he just ignored...
I woke up all sweaty, I had that nightmare again. I'm having this dream about that night that changed my life forever, the night when I lost my virginity, the night when that bastard raped me for the first time.
*flashback*
I was home alone, watching some stupid movie and ate popcorn. It was pretty late. Louis was out with his gang buddies. I heard the doorbell and went to open the door.
ME: Louis is not home.
It was Harry. I tried to close the door but he just walked into the house.
ME: I told you Louis is not here! *I raised my voice*
HARRY: Who said I came to see him? *he looked at me with that disgusting look in his eyes and bit his lip*
ME: What do you want?
HARRY: You.
He started approaching me and I stepped back.
HARRY: I want you!
ME: I don't know what you're you talking about.
HARRY: Oh you know very well what I'm talking about.
I don't know what the fuck is wrong with him, there's so many hookers outside, why does he have need to be here and bully me.
HARRY: Come on baby, I believe you're more comfortable in your room. Let's go!
ME: Get away from me you idiot!
HARRY: I can't wait to check if you're that bad in bed too. *he licked his lips like some kind of animal*
I was shaking, I was afraid of him but I was kind of tough, that's what I thought. He grabbed my arm and dragged me upstairs to my room while I screamed and cried.
HARRY: Shut up you little slut! Stop acting like you won't like it!
He threw me on the floor in my room and locked the door. Than he started taking off his pants and getting closer to me. He pulled me up and stuck me to the wall and started kissing my neck, I tried to get him off of me but he was on me with his whole body. I screamed but he just ignored. His filthy hands were all over my innocent body. In one second he ripped all my clothes off me, pushed me to the bed and took his pants, shirt and underpants...
*end of flashback*
That shit always makes me cry, and the worst thing about that, that wasn't the last time he did that to me. Almost every time Louis isn't home he just invited himself and rape me, beat me, insult... and I have to be quiet.
I went to take a shower, dressed up and came down to the kitchen. Louis is still sleeping, if he even came home from last night. I made pancakes and left to check if Louis was in his room. I found him in the hallway, sleeping on the floor.
ME: Lou come on, I'll make you a coffee.
I tried to help him get up but he just didn't cooperate. He just murmured something.
ME: Come on, please! You have to help me. I can't carry you on my own.
He dropped dead again. How can you even get that drunk? How did he get home? He is not himself right now, but I can't move him, he's too heavy. I didn't have any other choice, I went to the kitchen to get glass of ice cold water and I threw it on his head.
LOUIS: What the fuck is wrong with you? Why did you do that? *in one second he was totally awake and furious*
ME: Whatever. Come on, I'll make you a coffee.
I offered him help to get up and he just pushed me really hard and got up by himself. That's what I get for taking care of him.
LOUIS: Bring me my pills and make ma a coffee!
ME: I'm not your maidservant! You've got healthy arms and legs so go and get it yourself!
While I said that I could saw the fire in his eyes and steam coming out of his ears. I know I shouldn't have said that.
LOUIS: What the fuck did you just say?
ME: What you heard!
So I just had to say that and make everything worse. He hit me so hard so I fell down and started crying and he was just standing there with not even a little regrets for what he did to me. It's not the first time he hit me, but every time it hurts even more.
I hope you like it <3 Chapter 2 coming soon!
Sorry for grammar mistakes ;)
