to my sleeping beauty,
i feel as if our relationship came at the wrong time
you were the right person for me, just not at the right time
if we find each other in the future
i want to walk alongside you again, hand in hand
i'll be honest- i miss you more than anything
there's still so much i want to tell you, so much i want to share with you
it's strange sitting here alone with my own thoughts, lonelier than ever
i want to hate you, but i can't even pretend to be upset at you
i just find myself thinking about the good times instead
remember that first trip we went on, your arms around me the entire ride there
asleep with your cheek pressed snug against mine
i took a picture of us- we were so happy, so in love
i still have the picture saved to my phone
it's still one of my favorites, and i saw it's still one of yours too
i remember our first kiss
we were on the way back from another trip at night, and you turned to me, asking
"can i kiss you?"
i was so nervous i didn't know what to say- so i just laughed
but eventually i said yes
and even though it wasn't magical like in the movies
it was the most beautiful thing i have ever experienced
you were always sure to be careful with me
always asking if i was okay, always checking if i was comfortable
with you, it was always a yes
thank you for everything you've done for me
i feel as if i can never say that enough
how are you?
i find myself thinking about you every passing minute
wondering, worrying, reminiscing
everything reminds me of you- of your uneven sideburns, your almost dimples, your-impossible-to-tame hair, your indescribable love for
i feel like i should still be loyal to you- i know it doesn't make sense
but it doesn't feel right to consider other guys
not yet
not when i'm still in love with you
i hope you're able to find happiness where ever you are
and i hope that we can be friends- not now, but in the future
you're the strongest person i know, and you deserve the world
love, v
