Kim Jonghyun

Jonghyun

    I know nobody is going to read this but I needed to do this because on December 18th 2017 we lost an amazing person...

         Jonghyun, I miss you more than words can describe... It has been almost a year since you left... I don't really know what to say and honestly I still can't believe you are gone. I wake up every morning and I feel empty and like something is missing and Jonghyun I feel empty because you are gone. I feel like somethig is missing because you are missing...Not a day will go by that I will not miss your smile, laughter, humor, personality, voice...Jonghyun there is not a day that will go by that I will not miss absolutely everything about you. I love you so much and I'm just so sorry Jonghyun...I really am sorry.

      I will never forget the first time I heard a SHINee song and I heard your voice. I remember being so happy when I heard your voice for the first time. Replay was the forst SHINee song I ever listened to and it will remain on my playlist forever because that is an amazing song and it is incredibly beautiful. And I will forever listen to your solo music and I will never stop listening to SHINee no matter what. Your music me happy and makes me feel ok. You never fail to make me smile no matter what mood I'm in.

      I hope that you know you did so incredibly well Jonghyun. You are amazing, wonderful, kind, caring, funny, talented, I could litterally go on forever because that's how great you are. You were a gift from the heavens and you left to quickly even though I understand why you had to go...You may have left this earth but you will never leave my heart.

       If I had one wish it would be to have you back so I could see you and hug you and tell you that I love you and Jinki, Kibum, Minho and Taemin love you and that so many people love you and want you to come back. And I know that is selfish because you are happy and at peace now but I miss you so much and my heart feels so empty and broken. And I'm still denying the fact that you are gone. It's been nearly a year and I still can't accept that you are gone. The only time I will face that reality is when I see Jinki, Kibum, Minho and Taemin and I see their eyes and the sadness in their eyes...then and only then do I realize that you are truly gone.

         

  I love you Kim Jonghyun, I can't wait to see you again.

- Sincerely, a Shawol