A Love Affair

4

JR

Man I love the fuck out of Essence. I have never met a girl like her before. She changed me man. Before I had met her I was just dickin bitches down then leaving they ass without a call back number. Then I saw Essence at a home game and I felt a feeling I had never felt before. I think I'm in love with her.

We been together for almost a year and we spend a lot of time together. I love everything about her ass. She was something special. She gave me a reason to love since I really don't have much love at home.

Look I'm not some punk ass emotional ass nigga either. So don't think that I am. Shit some times life just happens to us. I ain't trippin over the shit. You get the cards you get dealt with.

Walking home is always annoying when slow and annoying when Essence isn't around me. I hate being at home. Couldn't wait to have enough money to get away and leave them behind me. I'm only bringing Essence with me.

I walked through the door and all you can smell is cigarettes, alcohol, and sex. House always had some type of odor to it if I don't clean it. I guess that's what happen when you have an alcoholic coke head as a mother. She high on the couch now.

She wasn't always like this. My mother used to be a beautiful black queen. She used to turn heads when she go anywhere. Then my pops got murked and it changed her forever. My mom was trying to find another man that was like my dad. She wasn't successful. They turned her out. Left without a care.

I walked passed her thinking how she used to be. Nothing could change her unless she is willing to change. I dropped my book bag on my bedroom floor. I decided to clean the house because my mom didn't raise me to be in some flithity ass house.

After cleaning up I was knocked out cold.

*creek creek creek*

Someone was walking passed my room. "Ma, that's you?" I yelled as I got out the bed.

"Yeah Junior. Come downstairs." His mom yelled back.

I listened to my mother and brought myself downstairs. She was flipping through her and my dad's photo album. I already knew what this was about. Embrace myself.

"Mom please don't do this to yourself mom." I pleaded with her.

"Genooooooo!!! Why you???? Omg why they take you away???" She sobbed over a picture of my father.

"You going to get through this ma." I fought through my tears.

"I just want to say goodbye one last time." His mom said in between sips of her tequila.

"The bottle and the drugs ain't going to bring him back either." I setup on the couch.

"That's what I wanted to talk to you about." JR's said.

A silent moment..

"I start treatment in 2 days JR. I been like this way too long. I'm going to need you to handle things around here. I'll be gone pretty far away for 60 days. Okay?" She asked me.

"Yes ma'am." I never hugged my mom so long before.

"I don't want none of your tramp girlfriends in my house either." Her voice firm.

"Ma!" I replied annoyingly.

"I mean it!" She shouted.

"I only have one girlfriend. But okay ma." I got up from the couch.

"Dont forget to go to your p.o. appointments too." She reminded.

"I know mom." I responded.

"You still haven't told her?" She mumbled.

"No mom. I'm not ready to tell Essence." I flipped through the channels on the tv.

"Keeping your past from her is only going to push her away." His mom said before drifting to sleep.

I hated when she did shit like that to me. I know I have to tell Essence everything about me. I just don't know how to tell her. We are completely different from each other. Some things are better left unsaid. This is something I couldn't hide forever.

*FaceTime*

"Hello." Essence answered.

"Wyd bae" I asked.

"Just got out the shower." Essence announced.

"You dressed?" I was curious to know.

"No." Essence smiled.

"Let daddy see." I smiled at her.

Essence stood up and spun around in a circle.

My dick hard as fuck.

"Play with my pussy, girl." I demanded.

Without hesitation Essence was dripping her fingers inside her pussy. That shit was already wet. Listening to her pussy always gets me going man. She moaning my name. I can hear her pussy getting wetter and wetter. Mmmmhmm that pussy belonged to me. Just like this dick belonged to her. Only her.

"Cum for daddy, girl" I said in the deeper part of my voice.

Next thing i knew she squirted all over the screen. I'm nutting at the same time.

We both start laughing at each other.

"Man is momma home?" I asked pulling my shorts on.

"Yeah, but she been sleep." Essence answered cleaning her screen.

"Unlock the back door." I'm about to pull up.

She shook her head and hung up the phone. I grabbed my mom car keys off the counter.

As I drove I thought about what my mom said before she fell asleep. I couldn't keep having this secret in my head. What if she leaves me? Nawll Essence is too fucking solid to dip out like that.

Phone rings

Caller Id name: Rachel

Fuckkkk....