Prologue
I can not believe it's true. No I can't, it is impossible. I couldn't have just said yes and turn off the phone that day.
But I did. It's going to change my whole life. I'm going to take the strings and finally make my own decisions about my life. My own life. Not my mum's or my dad's nor anyone else's. I've always let other people tell me what to do. They've done the biggest decisions of my life for me and I never reallyliked it.
Now I did not listen to anyone else. Oh but I did. I did listen to my best friend Teresa when she told me to follow my dreams. I took some time to think about it and decided that why not? Why shouldn't I take the change. I knew I would regret it in the future if I didn't, so that's why I picked up my phone and contacted my future host family.
It was in May when I agreed to take the job a family was offering me in United Kingdom. I was going to be their Au Pair and I was supposed to be there for three months. I was so scared about it because seriously my whole life was about to change. I had always been the good girl listening to what mommy and daddy said. Did what they wanted.
I was 19 and I was still living with my parents. I had had a gap year and was working in a nursery. I loved my job, it was really lovely and I loved the children. Seeing how they developed made me happy and I felt lucky I was able to be part of their development.
I had a best friend who was more like an unbiologial sister to me and she meant the world to me. And of course last but not least my lovely little brother who I adored more than anything. Even though he wasn't that small anymore. He was 16 and quickly - too quickly for my opinion - growing in to a young man.
I was scared I was going to miss my parents a lot. Too much. I thought I would never be able to live without them yet. That I wasn't really ready yet. That I was too young. Going to sleep at night was difficult because I kept staying up until the sun rise thinking about different scenarios. I was going to miss my brother the most. It was going to be the first time in forever that I'd be living on my own. I was worried I wouldn't survive about the feeling of missing my family. I was lucky Teresa was going to be an Au Pair too just she was going to move to London when I was going to move in to a tiny village near Newbury. We were sure that we were going to see each other a lot during the time we were going to be in the UK. But it didn't drive away my other worries about being an Au Pair. What if I wasn't going to be able to look after the children? What if the family wouldn't be satisfied with my work. What if I'd be allergic to their pets? What if I would suck at cooking and they would fire me.
But as much I was scared I was happy. I was going to be living out of my parents finally. I was going to live abroad as I'd been dreaming for years. I was going to live in an English speaking country and I'd hear british accent every day and everywhere I'd go. I would start my own journey, a different to the others. No one would ever be experiencing the same things that I was going and I was so excited about it.
I couldn't wait that I would achieve a british accent and sometimes late at night I was imagining meeting my future boyfriend in there. Also I couldn't believe I was going to live in a same country as my favourite band. I was madly in love with one of the singers called Harry Styles. And as much as I dreamed meeting my future boyfriend I did dream about seeing Harry in one of my future trips to London. I couldn't wait to see what life was planning for me.
We also had our own plans with Tessa. She loved the same band as I did and she had her eyes on one of the other singers, Niall Horan. A blonde blue-eyed boy. A total opposite of Harry. He had brown hair and green eyes. He was the most beautiful person I had ever seen. And my life was going all around him. Anyway we had found out with Tessa where in London their band mate Liam Payne used to go out partying and we had plans to go there too, as we were old enough.
I knew leaving was going to be difficult but I wanted to do it anyway because I wanted to make my dream true so badly. I was sure it only was going to make me a stronger person and I would grow up as a person in a way I couldn't even imagine at that time. I knew I was going to be proud of myself and that in a year of time I would be a whole different person. I was sure everything in my life was going to change.
