That song

Im so sorry

IM SORRY FOR THIS IDK WHAT THIS IS

Justin P.O.V.

October 30 2016

"WHY ARE YOU A FUCKING IDIOT THAT DOESNT DO ANYTHING RIGHT" Reagan started yelling before he could say anything I ran up the stairs to his room and close the door and jump on the bed and started crying I hear the front door slam shut why would he tell me that

Oh probably y'all are confused so I was helping him clean up I was in the kitchen washing the dishes I was humming a song I was so focused I didn't hear him calling me until he screamed my name I turn around and drop a glass cup I was washing and then he started yelling at me I don't get why we were fine but since a month ago he started getting mad about everything and starts yelling at me not so much the kids cuz if he does I stop him before he passes the limit he can yell all he wants to me but not the kids

Y'all probably are asking y'all self why I have let him act this way with me as y'all know we were fine and happy but after he knew that he had a heart attack and about his parents leaving him and hims started to be a dad he started acting like that I think he it's stress i know I'm not supposed to let him tell me things but I know he doesn't mean them I know he isn't bad honestly the kids are a little scared from him now that makes me sad his family being scared of him sounds terrible I love him so much that I can't leave him I know he loves me to I can tell in his eyes but it just hurts when he yells at me

Everytime he does I try for it not to get to me someday it does and I cry like how I did today everytime he yells at me he walk out the door I don't know where probably to get fresh air I guess he does try to say sorry to me and the kids but sometimes we don't know if we should forgive him or not cuz he does it so many times but I don't know

*knock knock* "come in" I say sitting up "Justin" I hear while seeing Mel walking in with Henry behind her "yes Mel" I say helping them both get on top of the bed while sobbing "aww don't cry Justin" she says while hugging me a hug her back we pull away "it's okay you know how he acts sometimes I get it his stress" I say she nods "I m tared" Henry says I nod and motion them to come lay with me they lay on my left I put the blanket over us and hug them until they feel asleep but I end up also

Raegan P.O.V.

What the hell is wrong with me why do I keep yelling at them I hate seeing him hurt or my family I need to go back and talk to them so I do that I walk back home I was walking to get some air to calm down as I walk back I start to remember our happy times and when we became a family and the song I sing him that makes me calm down and be happy again I'm tired of screaming or yelling at them for dumb reason that I don't even know why I do

I walk into my house I look in the living room nothing in the kitchen nothing with glass still on the floor so he's up stairs I go in to Mel's room nothing Henry's nothing then I go to our room and their they are I walk over to them I look at them seeing that Justin has been cry he has a red tinted nose and around his eyes I start to tear up I hate this I kiss the little kids head once I go to Justin's I kiss his check and say 'I love you' and walk out closing the door quietly I go to the kitchen and clean up the glass on the floor after I do that I sit down in the living room

Why do I keep acting like this I'm stressing but it doesn't mean I can be taking them of on them it's not their fault my parents left it's not their fault I have this condition it's not their fault about anything that has happened I'm glad I'm their dad I'm glad we are a family I'm glad that I have Justin in my life I love them so much to let them go

Later in the day

I decided to make it up with them with taking them out for dinner and talk about what has happened I know that isn't enough but I still want to do it so I went up stairs and to the room and woke Justin up first "hey jay wake up" I whisper shaking I'm lightly I see him flicker his eyes open he looks at the and sits up and rubs his "um yea?" He says and looks at me "I want to take y'all out for dinner" he nods and gets up I lightly wake the kids up they are half asleep still so a carry them out to the car Justin right behind me

After dinner cuz I ran out of ideas

We end up going to the park the sun it going down it looked so pretty dinner was great like nothing happened and I'm glad but ima talk to Justin know the kids are playing in the playground "Justin?" I say he turns to me I grab his hand we turn our bodies facing each other "I'm so sorry I've been acting like a jerk I'm so sorry what I told you earlier or any day I yelled to you I never meant anything I said I've been so stress with my parents leaving and the condition I have and being a dad and I shouldn't take it on you I hate seeing you hurt and I hate seeing the kids sad to I'm so sorry I love you and them so much i hope y'all can forgive me I'm so sorry for my actions this past month" I say all he does is hug me

"I love you too" he says and let's go "I forgive you I get it yea I sometimes got hurt but I knew you didn't mean it it's okay" he says and pecks my lips "aww I forgive and I love you too" I hear "mi tu" I hear I look down and see the kids I hold out my arms for them to hug me so they jump on me it feels great to give them a hug "I promise to handle my emotions from now and not take anything on y'all I love y'all so much" I say "and if anything just talk to me your not alone love you too" Justin says I smile at him