Adumbrate

First Morning Problems

Dear Mary,

The first ingredient is barking, followed by gunshots. Than of course add 3 cups of screaming and lastly, add a pinch of betrayal to tie it all together. Once, stirred to a certain leaders satisfaction, pop it in the oven for three years, now, congratulations, you've made your first disaster !

What confused?Come on Mary! You know what I'm talking about! You've suffered like the rest of us! And what happens? You go and betray your family. You coward.

What are you going to do when the walking-talking disaster comes back? Hide her? Let me tell you something, when I see her again, I will crush her before she can mutter a word- from Emilia

"Ray!" I yelled as I rapped on her bedroom door. I clenched my uniform worringly. I thought about shouting again,but being taught with my older sister seemed to worsen my anxiety. First, it's my first day of sophomore year, second, it's my first day going to school in this state,third,it's my sisters first time ever being late to things.

All these'first timers' happening all in one day made my head spin and now I feel as if I'm about ready to lose it! Suddenly, before all hope was lost, I heard her curse, than a few rustles, and a door opening with my sister at its entrance.

With fists balled, autumn red eye brows pierced, Ray shot me an angry but yet prideful look and said," tell me, what are we gonna do today?"

"Umm....takle oo people.." I muttered while twirling my thumbs.

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"WELL SWEET MOTHER TERESA! WHAT DO YOU THINK THIS IS YOUR FIRST DAY OF THERAPY? SAY IT LOUDER BE FOR I MAKE YOU!"

I took a deep breath and with all my being shouted ,"I'M GOING TO TALK TO PEOPLE! And..."

"And.... What?"

" I am going to make friends." Now satisfied with my answer Ray looked at me with hazel eyes of triumph and made a hand gesture to the stairs. " now we may leave."

After running out of the house and locking the doors, Ray and I headed to Rumple High in her new car.

" I wish mom and dad could've seen us off," I said while staring out into New Jerseys mix of civilization and woods. Then I realized I made a mistake. Ray hates it when I mention our parents.Shes never told me why though.I've just always assumed it's because they never let her go to parties. I looked over at her but she made no face of distaste.

" too bad their at work, but hey, you got your college-sister who volunteered to drive you....though you could have taken the bus." I shook my head, sitting next to a bunch of strangers would've made me even more of a nervous reck, I'm glad Ray decided to take me.

After ten minuets of dubstep and k-pop, we had finally slowed Down as we entered a patch of pine trees, which lead us to a narrow dirt rode. "What hell are we in,a camp ground?" Commented Ray. Indeed, it did look that way. The parking lot was "paved" with dirt rather than cement, sport fields were hidden by trees, and all the signs with "reserved parking" or "student parking" written on them, looked as if they've been carved out of wood.

"Shit! I can't find a damn sign that leads us in." Said Ray. Great. It's my first day, we're late and lost. I began to twirl some of my white-blonde hair between my pale fingers.I suddenly felt as if my anxiety began to eat a whole through my stomake. Than, as if heaven were being open right in front of me, I saw a boy about my age.

"Look! Maybe you should ask that kid, he looks like he knows where he's going!" I shouted with delight.Ray sighed in relief as she slowed the car down and rolled down the window.

. "Hey you! Do you know-" she cut off as The boy turned around to reveal neck-length-straight black hair,and narrow light blue eye hidden by rectangular glasses. For one of the first times in my life, my sister looked scared.

"-Do I know where my own school is? Why yes. Just keep going straight." He smiled as he shoved his hands in his black uniform jacket.

" what's your name?" Ray said quickly.

"What's yours?"

"Rachel-"

"-but everyone just calls her Ray! And I'm Violate!" I exclaimed happily. That's it! I thought, I'm finally making conversation! Proud of what I've said so far I kept going as if I were reading a script," What's your-"

" Did I ask you?" He sneered. His reply felt like it just ripped my heart out. I thought that I could make a friend for once. I suddenly felt tears come to my eyes, it's like middle school all over again.However,before a tear could come out of my eye, Ray patted my head and death glared the boy. "Ok. Thanks asshole for ruining her first day, now why don't you just run off."

" oh how rude of me. You really are protective are you? That's cute.Well I'm on my way now! I guess I'll be seeing you around," and without a glance at me he walked away.My head slung back when the car gave a sudden surge of energy as my sister pushed it forward. Ray ran her fingers through her dark red hair.She looked very tense, almost like something was haunting her.

"Do....do you know him?"

"WHAT?!" She'd cried as she slammed on the brakes and stared at me."Wh-hy do you?" She stammered.

" No....?" I answered.

" oh sorry-he just looked like someone, l-like one of my crazy ex's!" And suddenly we looked at each other and laughed, because Ray is a lesbian.