Drunk Texting (LT BxB)

part 1

laus p.o.v

waking up for the third time this week to a "they kept me at work" excuse. i groaned about the thought of going downstairs, being met with a half drunk Jessica who believes she has been home all night and just came down here to make her some breakfast. i know what game shes playing, and i know that she doesn't play fair, but i just want her to admit that shes cheating on me. i sighed as i brushed my hand over my face, stretching and getting up out of bed, embracing myself for the same excuse that i heard over and over. i walked to the bathroom, freshening up, not really in the mood to have a 2 hour wash over as i'm in such a disappointing state. i opened the door, revealing a Jessica who looked up at me in guilt, hands where the door knob used to be before i swung open the door. when i looked at her, eyes were bloodshot, hair a hot mess and toxic fumes of alcohol burnt my nose hairs. i clenched my jaw, hearing her whimper under my gaze. she knew i was angry at her, but at the same time i was hurt for the choices she made after her first drink at the club, telling her not to drink too much, but she didn't want to listen to what the most important person the world, has to say to her. she straitened up and tried her best to not make eye contact with me.

"look at me Jessica", i said as i still kept my eyes on her trembling self, and did i not once gave a damn about how she felt, cause she didn't give two flying fucks about i felt, and that hurt me the most. her eyes met with mine, sorrow and guilt is all i saw, and that how she should feel, especially after all the things i have given her. 

"where have you been", i said sternly, even though i know damn right what she is going to say, i just really want to hear the truth from her.

"i-i...th-they kept me at w-w-",

"don't you dare lie to me!". she jumped at the sudden boom of my voice, i was soo sick of her bullshit that i didn't want to hear it anymore. i sighed, trying to calm my temper, but knowing that as long as she stands in front of  me, seeing the women that i had once love transform into a completely different person. its going to be quiet hard, and at the moment, the anger still remains.

"tell me the truth Jessica". she looked up at me, trying her best to let the situation go and let it slide, but i have given her a second chance at explaining herself, but she refused. sighing again, i groaned in frustration. looking back down at her, she sighed and grabbed my hand, jerking it away from her grip, she looked up at me in shock, knowing that i was hurt by her.

"can we sit?", she said as she pointed to the bed, i nodded and walked into the room with her following behind. i sat on the edge of the bed as she done the same, looking at me with most apologetic look i have ever been given by her, but i wasn't going to by it. 

"well, are you going to tell me?", she sighed.

"i need you to calm your beast first, okay?". i nodded, and she started talking.

"well, um, after our first drink, i knew that i couldn't handle it. so the next day, when i was at work, my friends offered me a drink since they heard about that night...", she trailed of, hearing my breathing had suddenly gotten heavier, but she looked at me, knowing that i have to clam down, i had done just that. i nodded, signaling her to carry on.

"umm... of course i had second thoughts about it, but they kept encouraging me to take e glass. so after that, i accepted it and drank. i-i thought that i had only had a few, but my friend told me i had more than two".

"how much exactly?" i asked, wanting to know how drunk she was by the number of drinks she had. and with the answer i had been given. the beast had nearly broke open the cage door.

"20", i gulped down nothing, hearing this answer from her was so heart breaking. i sighed, nodding and she carried on.

"m-my friend said that i needed to go home, but i was too drunk to drive, so she called over a guy who said he would take me to...".

"where?".

"his house". my jaw clenched,  keep it together lau. i though to myself as she carried on with the story. she was stuttering, knowing that shes nearly to the core of her lies, and so i has to brace myself at what shes about to say.

"when we got there, he helped me in the house and onto his couch, he said that i was acting childish the day after and so he told me what happened since i didn't remember exactly. h-he told m-me that we uhh...a-aah w-we".

"had sex?",

she nodded at my question, though she was surprised that i said so calmly, and i knew that i had to keep calm in order to not hurt her, though the beast wanted out, but i didn't let him. i sighed, knowing that i cant give her any more chances knowing that if i did, this would've been her third one, and by me, she doesn't deserve that many. pinching the bridge of my nose, wondering about what i'm going to do with her, is quiet a stressful thing, having to figure something out without the help of the love of your life, who has now cheated on you. is really heart breaking, and just by thinking about it, really made ma angry.

"lau im so s-",

"after all these times that i had with you, all the things a man could ever give you. you even said it your damn self. i tried so hard to make you happy, though you make it harder and harder by the second! i tried telling you not to drink too many, though you never listened to your husband. how could you?!", i yelled as i stood up, pacing back and forth around the room, trying to pull myself together. i felt her hand tug on my arm, trying to calm me down. i jerked it away from her and she just stood their, looking at the one person she had love most, drain all of her love out from head to toe while thinking about what she has done for me to deserve this. i sat down on the chair that face our window, i sighed, knowing the answer to all this.

"i think you should leave". i heard her gasp, and i could tell that she was crying, but i'm glad that she couldn't see mine. i was in so much pain, and i needed someone who i could talk to right now. but with her around, i cant, and i needed to get her out.

"b-but lau, baby i said i was so-",

"i know, and i don't want it, i want you out. don't make me repeat myself", i said sternly as more tears had flooded my eyes, rolling down my cheeks as i looked into the morning haze of new york city. i heard her sigh, foot steps that lead to the closet, now hearing  her unzip her suitcase and ruffling in the closet. after a few minutes, i heard the door open, but never heard it close.

"im  so s-".

"out",

suddenly i hard the door close softly, and her car backing out and down the road. i sighed, now experiencing a empty pit in my chest.

"what have i done to deserve this?".