Stuff that happens to me

Chapter 2

I wake up and roll my eyes at the clock, 6:43. I couldn't sleep at all. I'm going to church today so I have to get up early anyway. I sluggishly trudge down the stairs to my room. I put on (photo above) and do my makeup simply with just mascara and foundation. I eat my  boring breakfast consisting of toast with just grape jelly on it; I don't like butter, I know its weird. 

 When I got to church I look around and don't see any of my friends. I was there 20 minutes early but still normally there would be at least one person there. After five minutes my friend Charlotte walks in. We sit and talk; she doesn't know I like Lucas so we couldn't talk about him. We ended up talking about  Jackson, the guy she likes. Eventually Lucas walks in, I wave him over and he sits by me. Charlotte gets up as soon as he sits down and walks over to Helen. I don't like Helen, she talks about me behind my back even to Charlotte which she knows is one of my closest friends. She thinks I like all the guys she does when in reality I don't like any of them. The guys she thinks I like are some of my closest friends. "Hey." Lucas says whilst smiling. God, he is so freaking cute like ugh, anyway. "Hi" I reply smiling back. "Soooooo," he says. "I have something to tell you." with a straight face he then whispers "I like someone." "Oh who?" I whisper back half upset. "Guess." "umm Ashlee?" "Nope," he says popping the 'p'. "Do I know them?" "Obviously." he quickly states rolling his eyes. "Riley?" "no, definitely not". "I don't then who. " I'll give you a hint; I'm talking to her right now." I immediately look down and blush. I can't think of anything to say I mean I like him but I never thought he would like me back I mean I'm ugly "I'm just kidding" he quickly says laughing. "I kind of figured I mean we are just friends, I didn't want to say anything to make you upset." I say fake laughing because what else am I supposed to do. "So who do you actually like?" "This girl at my school, her name is Amanda. She's super pretty I'm going to ask her out tomorrow." "oh nice," I manage to get out, barely. 

After church I text Lucas 'Good luck tomorrow, you'll need it hahahaha.' He immediately replies 'I know'. When I go to bed I end up crying myself to sleep and don't fall asleep until about 3 am. I really hate my life sometimes. I mean I will never kill myself but I don't even know anymore. Good thing there is no school tomorrow because it is still Summer.