Anxiety

He feels like he's going to break under the pressure, he needs to figure out how to get it all together, sometimes he feels like it'd be better off if he was gone, but he has friends and family who love him so he knows he should stay strong, he doesn't want any help, he is strong enough to get through this himself, even though he feels trapped, he feels like any moment he could snap, it's like there's a bunch of knives in front of him so that if he moves, he will be stabbed, so here is the reason why he's afraid, the reason to say what he's trying to say, he's afraid cause of something to do with his girl, he's afraid of hurting her, every day for him is a new learning curve, he heard stuff about her past and just wants a future with her, he loves her of course, love is pain though like a beautiful rose with sharp thorns, it can set you free, but it can also make you bleed, she says she will never leave, no matter what, but if she did he knows it'd be his fault, but sometimes he does feel like he is going to breakdown, trying to figure out what to do now, cause after all he's only human, but without her things would be even more confusing, her voice is relaxing like the sound of ocean waves, he eases up hearing it when his emotions rage, but at the same time, he's still afraid to hurt her, she says baby it's ok but he isn't sure if he should take any steps further, cause he values her so much, he doesn't want to lose her love.

To be continued.