Second Chance

First Life (part 1)

Yukari Shiro's Point of View

Sigh. Just another day of my everyday routine, I get out of bed and get to school as fast as I can so I don't have to see my family. There is a reason for that, my family hates me and never let me enjoy my life. They have made me suffer, since my dads death, blaming it on me. Of course my luck is just this bad because as soon as I went downstairs I saw my mother and brother standing by the door. Great, I thought. I continued to walk down the stairs, careful not to make eye contact. I had hoped that they wouldn't pay attention. I had a dark expression, trying to hide my face from them.
     "Hey, you don't even say good morning to us?" That was when my stomach dropped and I wanted to hide forever or leave and run somewhere far away, and never return.
"G-good morning" I responded hesitantly. I felt scared as if they were going to hit me at any moment, and I would leave the house and go to school with cuts with blood and all scars being shown. I braced myself, ready to be hit. But it never came. Instead my mother just said that I was a mistake, which wasn't bad since I had been hearing her say that to me since dad's death. She blames me, and often hits and abuses me when she drinks, even though she does that on a daily basis, with Kaito nii-san.
    *nii-san is a Japanese word that means older or elder brother*
    I left to go to school and have a normal day of being bullied and going to the nurse to get treated. Sigh*, why is my life this way. Dad I wish you were still here. I looked up to the sky, and then looked down sadly and started to tear up. But I knew I couldn't since I was almost at school and I would be called a crybaby. So I blinked my tears away and continued to walk.
     The bell rang and I knew it was almost time for class to begin. I quickly hurried to class, and for once I was excited. I didn't have my normal teachers since they were all absent, that meant that I had teachers that didn't know me and u could be one of their favorite students, instead of one of their students that they hated the most.
                           (During Lunch)
     "Hey", I turned around to see five girls standing around me. "This is our spot, get up", I didn't want to get up, but I knew I couldn't defend myself. It was five against one.
     "O-ok", I responded. I slowly got up and left, careful not to make eye contact. "Sorry", I said and I wanted to leave as fast as I could before I could get hurt. Then I felt a kick on my back. "It's to late", I thought. Soon I felt many kicks and punches. After maybe twenty minutes, they stopped and I heard one of them say something like, weak. I don't really know because u blacked out as soon as they left.
     "Shiro!" I heard someone call my name. I opened my eyes to find my self in the nurses office with bandages on. I was confused, how did i get here, I  thought to myself. Then everything came flooding back to me.  Right, these five girls beat me up.
     I get up only to be tackled by my only friend, my childhood friend. I smiled slightly and then said "Kouta, I'm fine. Sorry to worry you" I said feeling guilty. But I heard an unexpected response that I  thought I wouldn't hear anymore since dad's death.
     "It's ok, just don't do it again. You are the most important person that I know" I looked at him surprised. He was hiding his face, but I could see a hint of blush on his face. Does he like me, I wondered. I dismissed that idea after thinking about it. No one likes me, not after. . . I decided to not think about it. I smiled and hugged him and said " Thank you for worrying about me". Although on the inside I still felt empty, but I felt a little less empty then usual. I wonder why.
                             (After School)
     I slowly walked home, since I didn't want to go back to my abusive mother and brother that fast. I arrived at my house, and hoped that my luck wasn't as bad as it was this morning. I opened the door and sighed. I looked around and saw that nobody was home. I was walking up the stairs when I heard "Welcome home, Ojou-sama"
*Ojou-sama is and honorific name that means young lady, usually used when taking to a wealthy high class female*
     I turned and saw the maid, Sonya, bowing down. "Sonya, I told you that when we are alone you can just call me Shiro" I said. "Gomen'nasai Shiro-sama", I rolled my eyes and then said" Better but we can work on it".
*Gomen'nasai in Japanese means sorry*
     I walked upstairs with my bag to do homework. As soon as I got upstairs though, I saw that my door was opened. I looked into my room of to see it trashed and I knew that it was Kaito nii-sans doing."Well time to start cleaning" I though go myself as I started to pick up the books and clothes that were scattered on the  floor.
     "Hello, lil sis", I heard my brother say in the doorway. I turned around to see my brother and I felt my eyes dull.  Meaning I was losing my emotions, this would happen almost everytime I see them, unlike the time in the morning when I saw them.
     "Hello nii-san" I said coldly with no feeling in my words. "I just wanted to say that mom wants you down stairs". I just went downstairs and pushed past Kaito nii-san and he didn't say anything but I knew something was wrong side he smirked.
      "Yes mother, you wanted to see me?" I said as I entered my mothers room. I went in and immediately got kicked in the stomach. I thought" Why me?", as my mother hurt me all over.
     "THIS IS WHAT YOU GET FOR SLAPPING YOUR BROTHER!", she yelled. So that's why, she always cares for nii-san more than me. No wonder he was smirking. I left without saying a word and went back up to my room to finish cleaning.
  (After Cleaning and Getting Ready for Bed)
     As soon as my head got to the pillow, tears started to well up in my eyes. I turned face down attempting to snuffle my crying noises with my pillow. I cried myself to sleep thinking about the day I got the news that my father had died.
                        (The Next Morning)
     I woke up early as usual, but I just layed down on my bed thinking. After a few minutes though I knew u had to get up since I definitely didn't want to see my mother and brother again. I got dressed and hurried down to the door. I sighed relived to see no one downstairs yet. I opened the door and started to walk outside, and I started at the sky. Wondering if dad was watching over me from above. I smiled and hoped that whatever he was doing he was happy. I walked to school and I never expected to come face to face with kicks and punches from my own childhood friend."How could you Kouta" I thought. I felt betrayed, and he even smiled, like he does to me, to the five other girls that bully me. I knew that what he said about me being the most important person to him was a lie. That can't be true, I can't trust no one.
     I heard comments like "No one cares about you" or " Die, you freak" even though Kouta said nothing, it just made it even worse, after all he did nothing to stop it, inside I thought to myself, maybe I will actually end my life. I decided to jump once school had ended, after all no one cares about me, I had no one ever since dad's death, not even my own family, and the person that I trusted the most also betrayed me. I went to all my classes like normal, and tried to enjoy it the best I can since it would be my last.
                      (After School Is Over)
     I walked to the roof and looked at the view below. This would be the last time I would see this. I looked up at the sky. "Dad" I started to say, " I hope that when I remove my life from this world I can see you up in heaven." I stepped onto the edge of the roof and let myself fall, and free myself from this misery.

 

I'm sorry if this is bad. This is my first story that I have ever made. I hope you enjoyed this chapter. I will try to update as much as possible, but because of school the process might be a little slow. Thanks for taking your time to read my story!💙💚💛💜