Drunk ||S.M||

Chapter 1

Driving back home with his voice blessing my ears, I start singing along, tho I have horrible singing skills but whatever.

Sometimes it all gets a little too much,
But you gotta realise that soon the fog will clear up,

A little too much has been my most favorite song for three years now- since it was released,

And you don't have to be afraid,
Because we're all the same,
And we know that,
Sometimes it all gets a little too much,

I've been through way too much, and having no friends for years wasn't the most helpful thing. Shawn has been the only person there for me, inspiring me and keeping me alive, not just breathing but dreaming and making my dreams come true. well, I know that non of my dreams is true yet but they will be. They will really soon but not Shawn's soon cause that will take ages for sure. God I love him for many reasons and no reasons. I just love him so bad.

Being the broke I am and having a life like mine, I can't buy tickets to any of his concerts or buy any merch.

It sucks when you can't be with the one and only person you want to be with.

I've known shawn since his vine videos, and from the second I followed him on Instagram I would slide into his DM's and tell him everything, I needed someone. I did so badly, but I had no one, and even tho I knew he would never see them and if he did he wouldn't read them cause I've been texting him for what's like four years now so, it's way too much to read, I would still tell him every single thing cause it somehow helped me.

Never be alone comes on next and a smile forms on my face in a second.

Shawn came to Toronto yesterday's morning but I haven't met him yesterday or today which kills me so bad. It does feel bad when you can't meet the person who saved you, been there for you and doesn't even know it, and made you laugh your ass out when you wouldn't even smile, and it's worse when they're in the same place as you, breathing the same air and you still can't meet them. It hurts when you're living in their home town and you can't even spot them. It just hurts...

I stop at a red light, and when it turns green I'm back at driving while singing perfectly wrong with Shawn's voice filling the car.

Seconds later Shawn's voice is replaced by my ringtone and Gia's name on my phone screen.

Gia is my best friend who I got to know last year. Our first conversation ever was about Shawn and Camila. Camila Cabello. And from there we became best friends.

I unplug the AUX from my phone and answer it quickly "Hey G"
"Hey small panda"

Ever since we knew each other she loved to play with my cheeks cause they're so damn chubby so that's where panda came from, and for small, well, I am short and have a really small figure.

"Did you get home?" We all know that there are overprotective brothers and overprotective boyfriends, but having no brothers and no one interested in me I have got that overprotective Gia.

"Still driving, G" I know she'll stay awake till I get home safe, even if she had to skip tomorrow's exam. "Don't worry I'll text you tomorrow's morning, just go to sleep"
"You mean when you get home safe, bye small panda, love ya"

She hangs up and then I plug in my AUX again and listen to Shawn of course. That's when I suddenly drop my phone and my grip on the steering wheel tightens while my foot hits the brakes as hard as I can.

The car stopped faster than I thought it would and thanks to my seat belt, I didn't smash my head into the front glass or ended up in a hospital.

I get out of my car to see who's the fucking asshole who is actually driving the damn Jeep that was about to kill me.

I slam my car's door and walk to the driver's door of that Jeep and that's when I forget everything that had just happened and freeze in my place staring at the person in the driver's seat. Holy shit.

This is insane...

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First thank you for reading this short crap chapter <3
Second this chapter is short cuz it's just the beginning but I promise that the other chapters will be longer so again thank you for reading this ;)

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