After a long long time I will start this lets say book again. I had a lot of work at school and a lot of things happened to me, so I stopped it. I hope that I will have the same inspiration as I had before about this book and I hope that you will like it.
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Time is passing as always. I am scared about that sometimes. Yes I am scared from the word TIME. Everything can change in a second. And that word "second" is a part of the Time. One second you are here,one you are gone. One second everything is pink and beautiful the other second there are black walls around you,there is no light,everything is dark.
I woke up like every morning with a perfect hair which I put in ponytaile. I dressed in my new pink jeans and my favorite JackDaniels white t-shirt and of course where I go without my converse? Nowhere.
Last two months were I think the most beautiful,but also the worst months in my life. School is going well, I am still not talking with Noel,who is still together with that bitch Lana, and I think that he loves Meredith more than me,like I dont exist. However,Meredith has a new boyfriend,I think he is in a senior year, Lucas,probably Noels friend. I think that Simon is jealous at her,or him or somthing is happening with him but he wont tell. Amelia has a boyfriend,he is same age as us,his name is Braulio. He has something Spanish in his blood. I think that she is happy,but I dont think that she is over my brother. But if she is happy, I am happy too.
It is wiard but I can admit that Meredith is ackting well now, I mean she ackts like she never wanted Leo by her side, or she never wanted me to be the lets say “looser”.
So I forgot,lets go back in the time.
After our project,me and Leo started to hang out, Leo was siting with me,Amalia and Simon at luch, everything started to be normal again. First days Meredith was nervous, she was looking at me like she will kill me every moment. But slowly she I can say changed. Leo and she had a big fight at school, arguing about the things, and ofcourse she had to let Leo go, if I can say it like that. At that moment I could feel that Leo was hiding something,or they both do. But I know that when he will be ready he will tell me.
Also, when Amalia and Simon get to know Leo, they understood that we are so colose,that we have built the most fantastic childhood behind us. But no one of them knew what happened next. Untill one day…
It was just three of us me,Amalia and Simon,like in the old days. We were talking about us,about life,time,changes. All of us admitted that I have changed from when Leo came back in my life again. I couldn’t lie anymore, I couldn’t keep that from them. Surley, they knew that I have feelings for him, as Simon says “ Everyone can see that in your eyes”. But they were always asking, why our friendship ended. And I said everything,every detail, I told about my feelings, I was crying and lauging at the same time. My friends have shown me that I should be really happy to have them by my side.
So,my life was now better,so much better. But there was one thing,one awful thing…
As u know,I had a fight with my parents,and I am still mad at them. When they came back from “just god know where they were” I could feel that something is happening with them… I could hear every night how my mom was crying on dad’s arms, Nathe was different, and Faith just wanted me to be near her. One day, I got up and no one was there, not even Faith. I went downstairs and ate waffles with Nutella. I tried to call my parents,but no one of them was picking up. Suddenly, I saw document on a desk. I was curious. I took them and I was shocked. I read them all with disbelief. I was shaking, my head started to hurt, I couldn’t walk even couldn’t breathe. I did everything I could to call Leo, only one who could help me. I couldn’t talk, I was crying and he was scared I could fell that in his voice. I took my bag,took the documents and run away. I got to the park, at our place. He was there,scared and I just hugged him,crying in his arms screaming, not telling anything. He was stroking my hair telling me to keep calm. I gathered courage to tell him what I found out. I gave him the documends and he,he started to cry,not letting me from his hug. The truth is, I found out where my family was, what they were hiding form me. They were in New York. Yes new York,to meet the lets say the best doctor for cancer. Yes I said cancer. My little princcess was suffering from it. But I couldn’t understand why they were not telling me? Why? She is my sister,my angel… I was scared,scared to death. I wanted to give my life to her, to give anything I can to help,to save her. With a lot of difficulties she was figting,and she was going to win the battle.
We didn’t go to school. Leo was making me company when I went home,and my parents were back.
“You find out”-mom said.
“Yes I did. But I don’t understand why you didn’t tell me? “
“ See baby. We made a big mistake for not telling you. But we wanted first to be sure,if it is true. Noel didn’t know untill last Monday. We were going to tell you tonight.”
“So it is true. She is suffering.Is she in her room? And where were you?”
“We were at the hosipital,she had a big cough,now she is better.”
Me and Leo went upstairs, Faith was sleeping like an angel, I kissed her forehead and then I started to cry in Leo’s arms. Mom and dad said that she will start therapy next week. I was scared.
