No more pain, please?

Chapter Seven

Maybe its not my weekend, but its gonna be my year.

I'm so sick of watching all the minutes pass as i go nowhere

And this is my reaction, to everything i fear.

Cause i've been going crazy.

I dont wanna waste another minute here.

I sing as i walk in to my bedroom. I jump when i find Alex sitting on my bed. No-one really know about me being able to sing. Well no-one apart from Alex and Molly. And i was sure to keep it that way. As you can probably tell, i have really bad stage fright. I have had it ever since i was about 4.

Flashback.

'Come on Kadiee, its your turn to sing.' I heard my teacher tell me. I took a deep breathe and walked on to the stage. I saw my mom sat on the front row, as so as she saw me, she jumped to her feet and had a massive smile one her face. I tried to focus on her face. I started to sing. 

'I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders-' 

I felt my body temperature rise and then the next thing i knew, i was staring at the roof. I heard everyone panic, my mom was the first person at my side. She helped me to stand. When i was finally on my feet, i noticed everyone was looking at me. I ran off and hide in a room. They were all looking at me. It felt like they were all laughing at me. It was horrible.

End of Flashback.

And ever since that day, i have had a bag case of stage fright.

I sat down on my bed, beside Alex. 'Heard you come in last night. Was so late Kadiee?' Saying this with a smirk on his face. He knew why i was late and that i was with a boy, he just wanted me to say it myself. ' I was with Ashton, and before you say owt i like him. He different then everyone else, but i dont really now how or why.'  Alex looked at me with a large smile one his face. Then it disappeared. 'Just be careful Kadiee, I dont want you to get hurt again. Remember what happened with Jamie.' Now i understood why the smile disappeared, because so did mine. I have tried to forget that memory for ages but it just isnt working.