Just tired of keeping this fake smile on my face
My soul longing for a place t be at peace
Tired of this world
Scared for the future
Guilty for the past
Confused Present
Those silent tears don't wanna stop
I Wanna scream
I wanna shout
But you know what
There's no one to listen me out -Ouch...
Confused,Sometimes imagining a blessed future,
Sometimes imagining my death to end all this mess
But the worst is
Its all imaginary -
The only truth is
Nor can I die peacefully
Forget living a blessed life
The guilt rising day by day
Tired of suffering it..
No one to listen me shout
Just the walls to listen me scream,
No one to wipe my tears
To gather my broken pieces
But certainly many to crush even grind those pieces
And drown those in the Holy River..
The worst truth of my life
Never cared for those who loved me
Never shut those who used me like a tissue
This is not the only issue
Now with my trust been broken
A lot more than million times..
Such a fool I am
My heart still stuck on those who uses me..
My mind guiding me to move on
But you know what they agree onto together -
To Never Trust Anyone,
To hide my real self
In order to stop being broken again..
Still the battle goes on
And I don't know what lays in future
But right now just wanna let it all out..
Say it aloud for someone to hear
Who would just hug me tight ,
Wipe my tears,Won't judge,Won't inquire
Neither take the topic in near future rather never..
Be it a friend , my parents ,siblings or just anyone but someone who would get through all guard walls that I built around myself to prevent breaking once again..
The one who would gain my trust enough
To let me pour out all I had in my heart from so long
I fear what if there's no one as such
Neither in my present nor in future..
Than I would prefer
Sleeping forever with all these bundling up inside me ..
I just wanna let it all out
Just wanna let it all out..
My soul longing for peace
Tired of this world
Scared for the future
Guilty for the past
Confused Present
All I want is to let it all go
But somewhere deep inside me
I am still stuck in the past..
My wish ..Either peaceful night'S'
Or a night which may last forever to end it all
And lead me to the another World...
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May God Bless All...❣
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