ART GUMBO

If

If I had you, I would never let you go.
The spirits surround me, but it's time for me to let go.
These four walls get very lonely.
These four walls try to hold me.
But when you come over, a light shines
Breaking apart these fears I posess.
Darkness surrounds me, making me feel internally depressed.
I'm strong, but I can't just keep lying to myself.
So I decided today for this to be a first step to change.
Utalizing my pain, to make it out to my claim to fame.
From video editing to artwork.
Photography to music.
I have it all in my hands, so I didn't know why I felt so clueless.
I'm telling you this because your spirit gives me hope.
To a new life that I can build when I take that step forward.
Your smile warms my heart, your skin darker then a jaguar.
Your hair flows like a black lion
Your intellect is full of beautiful black fire.
Which has me thinking....
I know my talents will take me very far.
I gotta shake it off.
I gotta get through this storm.
It's no one else's responsibility if deep inside I'm torn.
It's up to me.
So I thank you for believing in me
When I sometimes don't believe in myself.
I have so much more writing to do, and writing poetry for you definetally helps.
I don't know how long you will be here. I don't know if your feelings will change.
Just know that you came in my life at the perfect time. And I want to be here for you whatever we are or will be. I don't know if you here now and want to, in the future, to never be friends again. I don't know where my winds will take me. I don't know where your oceans will lead you.
I do try to swim. I want to flow through all of our tsunamis. And I plan on being here as long as forever is. Talk is cheap, but my poetry is priceless. Let my actions penetrate your heart like when me and you fuck.
This ain't never about  luck.
This is what the universe creates what is truly meant to be.
I pray my ansestors continue to love me.
Through all that shit that I go through.
Through all the hearts that love me in silence. Through all the secrets I can only hold to myself. Through all the shit I go through to finally create that beautiful wealth.
Love these days is hard to come by. Great friendships are too.
This is why you deserve everything I'm telling to you.
As I get ready to start this new day, I just want you to know I care about you greatly.
Wherever you go from this day forward.