Trigger Warnings: past depression/suicidal thoughts.
Dipper's p.o.v
Stan thought it was a good idea to go to the beach, said it'd be fun so sure. After about two or three hours we all split up: Grunkle Stan and Ford, Sood and Wendy, Mabel and Pacifica, and the me and Bill.
Bill was taking us to the highest doc on the big hill, honestly it's almost a mountain. We were just making small talk over these thing we got at a little trinket store. They were two bracelets ingraved with "🌲+🔺=❤" the cheesiest thing Mabel could ever think of. I look over to my boyfriend of five years today, wearing it proudly as a choker. I kind of zoned out from what he was saying, my mind went backwards.
I never, ever, thought my life would be this perfect; hell, I didn't think I'd live to see myself this happy.
Six years ago, I was so depressed. My anxiety was at it's worse and I felt so alone, I thought I'd be stuck that way forever. I never told anyone, I kept quiet, until Bill came back into my life. Yes I was scared at first but I was so bad, I needed him. And he needed me.
On our one year anniversary Bill confessed to me that before we started dating, he had no idea what love was. He was hated by so many, he had done so many bad things; he thought no one could love him.
But I did. And he loved me. We needed each other.
Now, looking back to how horrible and bleak my future seemed, I can't believe that this is my life. I live with the people I love and who love me, my book I wrote on Gravity Falls breaking records for it's genre, my family completely accepting who I am, and, most of all, I wake up to Bill's beautiful face every morning. I am the happiest I've ever been.
"Pinetree! What are you doing?" I heard Bill call out to me. I realized that in my spacing out, I had stopped walking and Bill kept moving.
I started dying laughing. Bill ran up to me, picked me up, and spun me around happily.
"What are you laughing at, huh?" He said in a joking mean voice. I kept giggling, as I was still being held in the air.
"I love you so much Bill."
"I love you too, Dipper." His eyes softened as he brought me down for a long, passionate kiss. After we parted, Bill grabbed my hand and started dragging me back up the hill.
"Hurry up, slow poke!" He yelled, me giggling stupidly the rest of the way up.
When we finally got to the top, Bill put his hands over my eyes and told me to just let him move me. He told me I could open, and I was in awe.
It was the most beautiful veiw I've ever seen. Like the kind in pictures that looks fake. Ocean, as far as you can see; if you look down, you can see families running around and having fun. It was about the most perfect thing ever... Except... I pull Bill next to me and hug him so tight he can't breathe.
"Haha, so I'm guessing you like the veiw?" Bill laughed.
"It's perfect, Bill, thank you." I kiss him on the cheek and turn my attention back to the ocean. I realized how high up we were, then I remembered what I was think about earlier...
"Is something wrong?" Bill asked gently. I take a breath and look at him, almost tearing up.
"Six years ago, I would've jumped off this doc without a second thought to it," I breath out a quiet laugh. "Now all I can think of when I see this is how amazing my life is with you and everyone else. And you did that. You saved me... I love you so much." I pull him into a sincere hug, him stroking my hair and me trying not to cry at all of this.
After about a minute, he lets go and kisses me gently. I'm trying to burn this amazing feeling into my memory, to have and hold it close forever.
"Well, I guess now is a good time to ask," he pulls out a small velvet box from his back pocket and kneels to me. I cover my mouth in astonishment. My mind starts raving. He wouldn't... Is this real? This has to be a dream.
"Pinetree, with you I feel invincible, like we could fly away from this world. When I'm with you, sometimes I can't focus because all I can see is your beauty. When I'm with you, time stops and it's just us. I need you in my life and I can't bear a second of thinking of a life without you. You are everything to me... So, Mason Pines, would you do me the honor of marrying me?"
I'm stunned. All of my memories of good times I have with Bill flash in front of my eyes. All those long nights he'd stay up and talk to me so I wouldn't feel alone. When I first told my family we were dating. Our first kiss. Our first "I love you"s. And all I could think of was a future with him.
"YES!" I scream as he gets up and kisses me. I realize I am crying hysterically, but that doesn't matter now. Nothing else does. Just me and him.
He breaks the kiss to put the ring on my finger, and I cry more at how right it feels. I look up to see he's crying aswell, I laugh joyously as he picks me up and spins me once again.
"It's about time!" I hear Grunkle Stan's voice. I look over to find all of the people I love: Grunkle Stan and Ford tearing up and smiling proudly, Wendy and Soos crying happily, and Mabel and Pacifica outright sobbing and squealing our ears off. Then my boyfriend- no. Fiance.. Fiance. That feels so good to think. I run over to the group and we all get in a big group hug, we hear applause in the background, as if this couldn't get more cliche.
This is the moment of pure blissful happiness everyone talks about. This is the moment you realize you looked forward to in your darkest time. This is what people mean when they say "it gets better".
And it's so much better.
WOW! Done. I'm actually like really proud of this?? I honestly didn't plan that ending at all. It's funny how I can finish a fanfiction in one sitting, but can't work on my homework over the course of weeks..
But life DOES get better. No matter how cliche it sounds, it does. And I love you all so much.
